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so fri is a fellowship @ my pastor's home.  steve has 2 go, but theres no kids allowed. so id have 2 get a sitter if i want 2 go.  now i feel excluded b/c his mother & sis r going.  so i fl like...

i feel like a chump.  why do i always have 2 b the peacemaker?  i asked him what cld i do 2 b easier 2 talk 2.  he sd he didnt know.  we talked some. its so sad & depressing.  were having ups...

spending time w/him is like......prob like a mine field 4 him....he doesnt know whats gonna upset me....and i feel like im out w/a guy who's been like not nice 2 me....a guy im in love w/but not sure...

he says id like our relationship 2 b better but i dont know how.  im beginning 2 thnk that the marriage that i wanted is out of my reach.  i find myself looking @ other men.  i didnt used 2.  i...

so now he asks me if i wanna go 2 the fellowship @ my pastors house next fri.  b/c its adults only.  doesnt sound like he wants me 2 go.  he says he has 2 go b/c hes an officer.  i asked him if...

was lookin @ my old journals.  i started writing about this time last yr.  we have been having serious prob 4 a yr or more &  he doesnt wanna go 2 counselling. we went 2 counselling 2x b/c a...

so i slept in the lr. come morn did he talk 2 me? of course not. i moved upstairs b/c they all came downstairs 2 watch tv.  possibly this was of some significance.  but he didnt say anything and im...

i may just have 2 give up on sleeping w/my husband. when we get into bed 2gether i just feel like a fool.  i reach out 2 him sometimes & im looking 4 him 2 reach out 2 me.  and sometimes when he...

this is so funnyhttp://www.elfyourself.com/?id=1443291925 

in the movie there was a resolution.  the wife and mil came 2 an understanding.  and the mil admitted that the strife was about her being alone and losing her son and not actually about the wife. ...

i have 2 make better choices...right now i am alone.  i shd b relaxing...not spazzing over my marrital woes. dulce le leche ice cream and then lay down.  im watching monster in law still.

im watching monster in law & i can so relate.  nothing has happened since the talk on the phone that ended w/her telling me that i didnt love her son.  i find myself expecting and like afraid whats...

well tday was weird.  we were beat.  s & i.  so we were late 4 a funeral.  i was supposed 2 sing w/my choir & he was supposed 2 play.  anyway we were late just like last sunday.  we r out of...

talked 2 s. i wonder  if im making too much of  it.  i mean if i didnt know that s was not sharing w/me emotionally then how he treats me wld not b a prob.  but i do know. and now i feel like a...

well i talked 2 himi feel like a chump 4 doing sono resolutionwe talkedi tried 2 b honesthe sd that i brushed past him & did not acknowledge himhe sd he nvr did that 2 mesome tension is disipatedi...