talked 2 s. i wonder  if im making too much of  it.  i mean if i didnt know that s was not sharing w/me emotionally then how he treats me wld not b a prob.  but i do know. and now i feel like a chump.  ive always bn in relationships where i felt it was unequal.  how did i do it again? older married people esp wmn tell me that its nvr equal.  what do they say that things b equitable but will not be equal.  i watched my mother be   available 2 my father when he was not available 2 her. i dont wanna b the same way.  marriage sucks. im havin sex 1-2x.mnth.  im not havin passsion and romance.  i have kids 2 take care of.  we love each other but the expressions r limited.  we shd have stayed single and not had more children. we still wldnt b having sex but itd b  expected.