naimalove

i just wanted to be held today.  by damn near anyone.  i wanted a man.  i guess to feel that masculine energy.  i dont think im such a horrible person.  anyone in my position wld feel angry hurt...

no bid shocker.  my stbx hasnt shown up to hold me and hsnt even bothered to call.  amazing how things change.  honor is just not high on peoples lists of importance.  im starting 2 wonder if...

i feel like crap 2day. baby's moving a lot.  i usually find joy in that; not 2day.  im glad shes moving which proves shes alive, but im kinda detached from it.  i have a headache.  im frustrated...

we had an appt at family court to settle support.  he showed up after i left and without his pay stubs.  so now we have to go back in april and in the meantime he can not b depended upon 4...

and i don't yet know how much its gonna cost me.  i bought the van primarily b/c of its outward appearance and how it drove.  but on the inside it has important sensors that do not work that i did...

and i haven't called him back and i'm not going to.  gd 4 me.

im losing my best friend.  i allow my h to c me at my very best and at my very worst.  i am rarely ashamed with him.  i may after acting out of character apologize, but i expect him to forgive...

i told me stbx that i needed money.  i needed it to pay my sitter.  he didn't have it b/c of some nonsense with his money.  i asked him for the money on payday and hes like i dont have it.  its...

i pray i made a gd call.  it looked like a good buy.  i paid $2000. transferred the title and tags.  that was another $100.  the car just passed inspection had new tires a tune up and an oil...

it has captains chairs on the first and second row.  i like that.  only thing i dont like is it doesnt have 2 back doors.  but it does have low miles.  from the pic the body looks decent.  i...

my mother just asked me, have u heard about any money? im just wondering how ur gonna pay ur rent?  amazing.  my husband apparently thinks of none of this or says nothing.  his children live with...

i cldnt sleep.  i ended up asking him the same questions ive asked like a million times.  and i ended up yelling and hanging up on him.  i realized that i cant mourn the death of a marriage until...

i paid what i owed to school and im back.  im going to take 4 classes.  2 this semester and 2 more the next.  im so scared that im gonna fuc up again and not do well.  not do my best.  im afraid...

i had such a gd time last night.  it was so gd 2 get out.  2day im exhausted and kinda blah.  i havent bn out of the bed yet 2day. i went to buy a car at an auction on saturday.  i was...

i now know that my h was beginning the affair around that time.  its funny how i had no idea specifically that he was having an affair, but i knew that something major was wrong and that a change...