naimalove

so i nd 2 go through the bs again.  i feel like a dummy.  ive complained about this "friend" before.  I wanna think of him as a friend, but most of our interactions leave me feeling taken...

idk what to think.  i havent seen jay since last sunday when he showed up unannounced.  it was ok.  i was surprised but not angry.  he came again 2day.  i dont think he has my number anymore b/c...

im so grateful 4 this site.  2day im calm.  i had a difficult conversation with my ex and stayed calm.  i get to vent on here and wonderful people going through similar comment and support.  may...

ive been sleepin all day.  just exhausted.  i ate doritos in bed and drank juice.  then i got up 2 get some sustenance.  i made a ham and cheese sandwich on whole wheat bread with a pickle and...

i feel alone.  logic tells me im not, but i feel alone.  and i feel stupid.  i know...i think theres no shame...i feel ashamed for loving my husband....im angry that i no longer have that bit of...

it wld actually be an extension of the job ive bn doing.  ive sd many times that i thought id b great identifying resources and pointing people to those resources.  and thats exactly this job.  id...

my kids love me being home.  my job left me with no energy each night and no time to spend with the kids...only on the weekend...and i spend most of the weekend recovering from the week. since ive...

i havent lost so many jobs in a period of time in my life be4 now.  i think i did a gd job, but they don't.  im starting to wonder if its me.  am i just not such a great worker as ive thought i...

so Ive sent my first payment to the divorce lawyer and Ive filed for support. spousal and child....its.....what is it? necessary? do i even love my husband anymore? i don't like him. i definitely...

im embarking on a new relationship. i start to think its not very serious and then the guy talks as if well b 2gether 4 sometime.  i like him and im enjoying being with him.  i dont know if i...

ive been contemplating suicide.  im in extreme pain and i want it 2 stop.  my children stop me from actually doing it.  i know that if i kill myself they wld be devastated.  i love my children. ...

strange. it was uncomfortable. it wasnt loving and warm.  i found myself thinking of someone else and wondering if he was thinking of someone else.  he didnt make love to my whole body...he just...

im going 2 file and i asked my stbx if there was any reason for me not 2? he sd no.  guess i was stupid to ask b/c i just feel rejected again.  intellectually i understand that him not loving me;...

was watching a sermon online.  i totally get the concept that i must b broken 4 God to b able to use me. however right now i cant yet praise him for what has been allowed in my life, I'm still angry...

bn staying in the bed mostly.  i feel pretty gd.  lookin 4 a dryer.  havent bn doing laundry so much. dont wanna go 2 laundromat.the guy didnt call nye and hasnt called nyd either. im annoyed but...