naimalove

i bought what i hope is almost everything that i will need 4 this baby.  its primarily basic essentials.  i hope i didnt go overboard.  damn me 4 having a dark week and calling off my shower; they...

take the support from our joint acct until his job started the wage attachment, but i guess he wasn't listening.  i took the money on monday and i took it 2day b/c 2day is payday.he messages me that...

i do not regret paying myself.  The outcome was positive.  I feel less stressed.  I'll be able 2 pay my bills and that's all i wanted.  The next step for me is to release the anger that my stbx...

my stbx does not pay support.  he signed an agreement, his job has not started 2 take the money out and in the meantime hes given me nothing for a month and a half.  we still have a joint acct. ...

i have no car.  my stbx has a car and will b parking it in the lot while he goes to work.  i mention 2 him im trying to figure out how to get to church 4 the eve service.  i havent been without a...

2 get comfortable.  its the humidity more than the heat i knowim frustrated.  my car needs major work and i dont know if its worth it.  but i paid 2 grand for it only 2 months ago.  not quite 2...

i fall asleep without a problem, but i wake sometimes multiple times during the night.  i sometimes fantasize about what life will be like...about having a husband...about finishing college...i have...

my stbx agreed to pay support, but hasnt made a payment.  he's gonna wait for his jo to take the money out.  im not surprised; just disappointed.  its funny that someone who claims to care so much...

thinking about school.  doing school work.  watching tv.  sleeping. and eating.  feeling a cool breeze.  generally not thinking of my stbx.  if only every day cld b this way. 

i have given so much of my power to stbx.  i talk about him.  i think about him.  i yell at him.  i love him.  i hate him.  i cry over him.  i pray 4 him.  i worry about him.  its a...

the worst thing i can do 2 stbx is leave him.  i loved him with my whole heart.  or with what was left after loving God.  idk.  well he will never find a better love on earth than mine.  he will...

my stbx tells me that when we were 2gether he wld look at other couples with disdain.  i feel like he betrayed me from the moment we took our vows.  that he was not committed to keeping those...

stbx asked me on the day i served him with divorce papers to pick up his dry cleaning.  i did it 2 b kind, but i dont even know if it can be considered kid b/c my attitude about it is pain.  i keep...

i received my divorce papers.  i have to serve my husband and he has to sign that he received it.  then in 91 days from then we have to sign saying the divorce is final and then i have to send both...

had lunch with my husband and he paid.  i got him to drive me somewhere semi far b/c i didnt have the energy 2 make the trip.  i slept the whole way.  we didnt talk at all.  and he gave me some...