i'm feeling a bit better, but still down

no bid shocker.  my stbx hasnt shown up to hold me and hsnt even bothered to call.  amazing how things change.  honor is just not high on peoples lists of importance.  im starting 2 wonder if maybe God does want me to be a nun, but ok i know im jumping the gun.  i havent even gotten divorced yet.  theres a time of healing to come.