*trigger* What if . . .

What if I cut myself?
What if I give in?
Would it help?  Would I feel better?  Or would it make things worse?
What will help?  Who can help? 
I won't give in, I rarely do.  99% of the time I control myself.  But the temptation is still often, and strong, and that means there's still something wrong.  Just because I don't act on the urges doesn't mean I'm okay.  I'm not okay as long as I want to cut.