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  School abuse memory

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  Posted: 03/03/2017

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  I'm a student now at Clark college when I went to sing up I was feeling very sick I was withdrawing from my Effxor witch I take for my complex ptsd yes I've been diagnosed not sure how I feel about it but it is what it is anyway I made it to register I was happy that a friend was with me otherwise I would have wigged out but she was there in involved in a program and she is my favorite she's a good person all the ladies really are but she understands me better then the others so I was super...

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  Help

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  Last Reply: soulwarrior 10/28/2017

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  I've singed up for school im so nervous but ready i have testing on Monday and the weekends are the times I'm punished my mom sales me through the weekend I could fight but then I would have bruises to explain away and still be made to do whatever the guys want anyway I need prayers that witch ever men are taken me for the weekend will just want regular stuff and not the men that like and get off on pain my mom says they just have a special appetite I hate them I hate feeling so dirty and...

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  Last Reply: devistation 03/04/2017

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  I've singed up for school im so nervous but ready i have testing on Monday and the weekends are the times I'm punished my mom sales me through the weekend I could fight but then I would have bruises to explain away and still be made to do whatever the guys want anyway I need prayers that witch ever men are taken me for the weekend will just want regular stuff and not the men that like and get off on pain my mom says they just have a special appetite I hate them I hate feeling so dirty and...

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  Help

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  Last Reply: h.e.a.l. 03/06/2017

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  I've singed up for school im so nervous but ready i have testing on Monday and the weekends are the times I'm punished my mom sales me through the weekend I could fight but then I would have bruises to explain away and still be made to do whatever the guys want anyway I need prayers that witch ever men are taken me for the weekend will just want regular stuff and not the men that like and get off on pain my mom says they just have a special appetite I hate them I hate feeling so dirty and...

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  Site

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  Last Reply: Paintbynumbers 03/01/2017

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  The feed back has been so real and some hard to hear but even then my beliefs are being challenged but it's hard I've believed for so long that these things are normal I built these understanding to help me understand I think I've always know it was wrong it hurt and I was made to be ashamed I hear that mothers shouldn't let men do the things they do it's against the law and the thought of any other person made to do the things I have to is upsetting but I've always felt that I deserved it I...

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  It's in the eyes of the beholder

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  Last Reply: Gladdmatt 03/01/2017

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  The feed back has been so real and some hard to hear but even then my beliefs are being challenged but it's hard I've believed for so long that these things are normal I built these understanding to help me understand I think I've always know it was wrong it hurt and I was made to be ashamed I hear that mothers shouldn't let men do the things they do it's against the law and the thought of any other person made to do the things I have to is upsetting but I've always felt that I deserved it I...

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  It's in the eyes of the beholder

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  Last Reply: Shai 03/02/2017

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  The feed back has been so real and some hard to hear but even then my beliefs are being challenged but it's hard I've believed for so long that these things are normal I built these understanding to help me understand I think I've always know it was wrong it hurt and I was made to be ashamed I hear that mothers shouldn't let men do the things they do it's against the law and the thought of any other person made to do the things I have to is upsetting but I've always felt that I deserved it I...

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  Good vs bad

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  Last Reply: Paintbynumbers 02/27/2017

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  Nobody is all good and nobody is all bad I just have to fight hard for the good I understand why I deserve this I'm never going to give up I can't she doesn't treat everyone like this it's because of how I came in the world I know I don't have control of being born but I was I just need to figure out a way to show her I'm sorry and that she is loved then she might forgive me and love me back dose any one understand what I mean if you can't stand someone at there worst you don't deserve them at...

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  Good vs bad

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  Posted: 02/27/2017

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  No body is all good and nobody is all bad I believe you have to fight for the good she is not all bad she doesn't treat everyone like this it's because of what I am I can't give up on her I understand we're she is coming from its not her fault it's not

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  Posted: 02/27/2017

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  I know a lot of people say that but I know her it's my fault she is like this I'm the product of her rape I'm even though I don't feel it she says I'm lucky to be alive she cares in a way I deserve this i just need to find a way to show her i can be more
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  Lost

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  Last Reply: JOYHOLY 03/03/2017

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  I haven't been here in a while I was very nervous about the feedback I don't think I could leave her it's my fault she is like this I ruined her life I do deserve this I just need help in making her see that I can be worth more I need to figure out how to get her to love me to forgive me for what I am witch is a product of her rape I don't know how to show her I can be more and that I love her and I'm sorry 

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  Lost

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  Last Reply: wsmith 02/28/2017

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  I haven't been here in a while I was very nervous about the feedback I don't think I could leave her it's my fault she is like this I ruined her life I do deserve this I just need help in making her see that I can be worth more I need to figure out how to get her to love me to forgive me for what I am witch is a product of her rape I don't know how to show her I can be more and that I love her and I'm sorry 

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  Lost

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  Last Reply: LuckyEmpath 02/28/2017

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  I haven't been here in a while I was very nervous about the feedback I don't think I could leave her it's my fault she is like this I ruined her life I do deserve this I just need help in making her see that I can be worth more I need to figure out how to get her to love me to forgive me for what I am witch is a product of her rape I don't know how to show her I can be more and that I love her and I'm sorry 

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  Posted: 02/20/2017

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  Help

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  Last Reply: AmberChristine 02/20/2017

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  Hello my name is Candice I was on a crisis chat line witch referred me here I'm seeking help I'm in a situation that I'm afraid there is no way out and it's so confusing and twisted my mom was raped and I was born she hates me and believes in different religion she has sold me my whole life I can't take it any more I feel the only way out is to end it I'm so alone and my story is different and I need help I can't take it anymore I feel  dead inside I feel dirty and guilty for wanting out I...

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  Posted: 02/20/2017

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  Anybody out there

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  Last Reply: patti22 02/21/2017

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  Hello my name is Candice I was on a crisis chat line witch referred me here I'm seeking help I'm in a situation that I'm afraid there is no way out and it's so confusing and twisted my mom was raped and I was born she hates me and believes in different religion she has sold me my whole life I can't take it any more I feel the only way out is to end it I'm so alone and my story is different and I need help I can't take it anymore I feel  dead inside I feel dirty and guilty for wanting out I...

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  Posted: 02/20/2017

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  Anybody out there

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  Last Reply: hopeless99 02/21/2017

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  Hello my name is Candice I was on a crisis chat line witch referred me here I'm seeking help I'm in a situation that I'm afraid there is no way out and it's so confusing and twisted my mom was raped and I was born she hates me and believes in different religion she has sold me my whole life I can't take it any more I feel the only way out is to end it I'm so alone and my story is different and I need help I can't take it anymore I feel  dead inside I feel dirty and guilty for wanting out I...