Daughters of Abusive Mothers Community Group
For those of us whose mothers were (or still are) abusive to us. In a society that puts mothers on a pedestal it can often be lonely dealing with the feelings of hurt, betrayal, anger, emptiness and grief of having an abusive mother. People with loving mothers often find it hard to believe or understand. Here is a safe place to express the feelings and find others with...
I've singed up for school im so nervous but ready i have testing on Monday and the weekends are the times I'm punished my mom sales me through the weekend I could fight but then I would have bruises to explain away and still be made to do whatever the guys want anyway I need prayers that witch ever men are taken me for the weekend will just want regular stuff and not the men that like and get off on pain my mom says they just have a special appetite I hate them I hate feeling so dirty and hopeless but not completely I'm a student I just hope I can manage to pick up the brokenness when this is over this weekend and go to testing not having to hide the pain and with no visible bruises or marks I'm trying to get out I really am its just not as easy as people might think so please pray for me
You are NOT dirty, wrong,etc.(and whatever else you might be thinking(and feeling)about yourself). You are NOT the one in the wrong here!!
You're NOT hopeless!!! Look at what your doing! You're trying soo hard to better both yourself and your life! That counts for so much more than you realize!
What I'm about to say will, probably, seem false and unbelievable to you. It might, also, seem like it couldn't possibly be true because of ALL you've been through(and continue to go through), all that you've done(and all that's been done to you), and all that you've seen(and been forced to see) BUT it is true!! Since it is true and nobody has ever told you this I will: You are a sacred, beautiful, beloved, and precious gift of love from on high. Yes, you've been used, abused,exploited,taken advantage of and discarded by those that the God of your understanding entrusted(and gave)you to BUT that's them; not God! They're the ones that broke trust with(and betrayed)God NOT you! They broke trust with and betrayed God when they broke trust with and betrayed you. God still sees you,though,and views you the way I first mentioned. In His eyes you are still His daughter and you are NOT beyond redemption!! You are His beloved,beautiful,cherished,and wanted princess. You will ALWAYS have a home with Him!
Like I said before, I'll be praying for you and I hope you do manage to get out or that you already have that'd be great too. I just noticed the date.