hun.., we don\'t want to lose you..your entries..you demeanor radiate so much self-hatred and misery, I pray that you will find release in life, and joy...you will, just stay strong for me, for you, for the life ahead of you, and for the life you have today...I don\'t know what to say anymore because you seem so lost, you have to find it within yourself: the will to live, hope, and you have, I know you have: I\'ve seen you get through these periods, you find it, and when it happens again you need to hold on to it with all you have, nurture it, sustain it, love it,...the will to begin anew, the will to live the life that was given for you, with all of its flaws and misfortunes...and be able to look past them into the beauty and the magnificence, which is all you are, and all your life will be.....I love you and know what you\'re going through with every fiber of my being....pain is an important life experience...but not in these immense quantities...release yourself, love yourself. Live.
I know that you are feeling rock bottom at the moment, but there are lots of people who have recovered from this (we have spoken before and my daughter was one of them). She found a reason to live and i know that you will too. I know that one day you will recover from this hopelessness you are feeling right now and find a life that is fulfilling. You are so young with so many adventures ahead of you. You mustn\'t give up and miss all that life has to offer you. Take care.
Dear Fluterify
As i you know i am a good 30 years older than you and i am going to give you the benefit of my life\'s experience. I would say i am an ordinary woman, an un-acceptional one, but i have lived a life with many happy times and i know that one day you will too. So i am going to give you my reasons for living that you must not miss out on. Anyway here goes with the things in my life i would not of missed.
I got married twice
i gave birth to three babies and watched them grow up. I had their cuddles and still do
i got drunk on Champagne
i have made love thousands of times
i have heard the dawn chorus
i have swam in the sea and led in the sun
i have walked in the snow with those i loved
i travelled across Europe by train
i climbed a mountain
I went to New York
i have two doggies i love
i take my boat on the river
i learnt to drive and felt i could go anywhere
i\'ve loved and lost
i have saved someone\'s life
i found people a home (work)
i have walked on the coast
i have family that love me
i ride on the back of a motorbike (in the summer)
i laugh at Jimmy Carr even though i shouldn\'t
i have looked at the moon and stars
i have listened to music
i have been to a pop festival and seen the rolling stones in concert.
You too can experience all that life has to offer.
I am sure there are loads more i could of written.
Hey friend...it hurts my heart to think that you would consider either of the two options you mentioned. Life has many challenges...and you have probably faced many. In fact, to this point you have made it through. Please remember that tomorrow is always another day...and with that day comes hope. I do not know you, but it is easy to see how down you are...have you talked to a physician? I also know that there are suicide hotlines, where you can talk to someone...and of course you could go to your local emergency room and tell them how you are feeling. Any of these folks will help you...please reach out for help. Take care of you...Karen
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hun.., we don\'t want to lose you..your entries..you demeanor radiate so much self-hatred and misery, I pray that you will find release in life, and joy...you will, just stay strong for me, for you, for the life ahead of you, and for the life you have today...I don\'t know what to say anymore because you seem so lost, you have to find it within yourself: the will to live, hope, and you have, I know you have: I\'ve seen you get through these periods, you find it, and when it happens again you need to hold on to it with all you have, nurture it, sustain it, love it,...the will to begin anew, the will to live the life that was given for you, with all of its flaws and misfortunes...and be able to look past them into the beauty and the magnificence, which is all you are, and all your life will be.....I love you and know what you\'re going through with every fiber of my being....pain is an important life experience...but not in these immense quantities...release yourself, love yourself. Live.
sorry about the typos...I often get too frantic to care about coherency :) message me if you ever feel the need to vent
I know that you are feeling rock bottom at the moment, but there are lots of people who have recovered from this (we have spoken before and my daughter was one of them). She found a reason to live and i know that you will too. I know that one day you will recover from this hopelessness you are feeling right now and find a life that is fulfilling. You are so young with so many adventures ahead of you. You mustn\'t give up and miss all that life has to offer you. Take care.
Dear Fluterify
As i you know i am a good 30 years older than you and i am going to give you the benefit of my life\'s experience. I would say i am an ordinary woman, an un-acceptional one, but i have lived a life with many happy times and i know that one day you will too. So i am going to give you my reasons for living that you must not miss out on. Anyway here goes with the things in my life i would not of missed.
I got married twice
i gave birth to three babies and watched them grow up. I had their cuddles and still do
i got drunk on Champagne
i have made love thousands of times
i have heard the dawn chorus
i have swam in the sea and led in the sun
i have walked in the snow with those i loved
i travelled across Europe by train
i climbed a mountain
I went to New York
i have two doggies i love
i take my boat on the river
i learnt to drive and felt i could go anywhere
i\'ve loved and lost
i have saved someone\'s life
i found people a home (work)
i have walked on the coast
i have family that love me
i ride on the back of a motorbike (in the summer)
i laugh at Jimmy Carr even though i shouldn\'t
i have looked at the moon and stars
i have listened to music
i have been to a pop festival and seen the rolling stones in concert.
You too can experience all that life has to offer.
I am sure there are loads more i could of written.
Hey friend...it hurts my heart to think that you would consider either of the two options you mentioned. Life has many challenges...and you have probably faced many. In fact, to this point you have made it through. Please remember that tomorrow is always another day...and with that day comes hope. I do not know you, but it is easy to see how down you are...have you talked to a physician? I also know that there are suicide hotlines, where you can talk to someone...and of course you could go to your local emergency room and tell them how you are feeling. Any of these folks will help you...please reach out for help. Take care of you...Karen