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  4-23

  Posted by: abusmc

  Posted: 04/23/2017

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  I have been just coasting along since she left.  I have been struggling with going to work and coming home to an empty house.  all of her stuff is here and she is picking it up tuesady it has been rough.  knowing i will never see the love of my life again. knowing she has done what she has done really makes me sick.  But i loved that woman and thats what makes this hard.  i wanted nothing but to grow old with that woman.  and now she is gone and i have been struggling with the fact that...

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  4-21

  Posted by: abusmc

  Posted: 04/21/2017

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  it's been about six weeks since my wife left.  it's been the worst 6 weeks.  i found out why she left and who she left me for.  it's been rough her birthday and easter was in the past 6 weeks.  i want to be healed and be ok.  i feel like out of this whole this i'm jelaous of her.  it seems like her life is ok and mine is falling apart and it makes me pretty up set i can barly afford anything and she is off having a good time she has a place to stay aand is already sleeping with people and...

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  4-16

  Posted by: abusmc

  Posted: 04/16/2017

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  it's been over a month and i'm starting to realize what went wrong.  when we met i was dying of cancer and we got marryed becuase of that which was the greatest time of my life.  but i didn't die and she didn't plan on being a wife that long and she left.  it was pretty bad for me becuase i i loved her and it was real for me.  it never was for her.  and it has hard for me.  i'm realizing that i am a good person and she was not.  

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  4-9

  Posted by: abusmc

  Posted: 04/09/2017

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  i was doing better until today. my wife decieded that i was doing to well and she found a way to mess with my head. she decieded to tell me what she was doing with others while i was with her and it fucked with my head so fucking bad. i've been a fucking wreck and having a hard time dealing with life at the moment.

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  4-6

  Posted by: abusmc

  Posted: 04/06/2017

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  so its been a werid day i have taken her off all of my social media i have been trying to hold to somthing that was going to change.  i know what she did and who she has done it with its been rough.  i wanted my wife and she clearly is back on drugs and i cant fix that.  but what i do next i can control and for that i'm going to be ok.  she has moved out most of her shit and that all that matters.  i'm going to take all of it to the curb and thats going to have to be ok.  i never wanted...

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  4-5

  Posted by: abusmc

  Posted: 04/05/2017

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  It has been 3 days since I wrote but i have had good days and bad days.  the moments come and go.  I felt like I was doing good then she would come back some how and mess with my head.  I have made progress i think this week.  I moved all the stuff in my name and i threw out alot of the stuff that i can't look at i have begun to sell things that I can't use anymore or dont want to look at.  becuase it has been hard.  i've gone thru and alot of the stuff i bought her I threw it out.  it...

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  New Friend

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  Posted: 04/02/2017

  abusmc became friends with sharaninmd.

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  New Friend

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  Posted: 04/02/2017

  abusmc became friends with sharaninmd.

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  New Friend

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  Posted: 04/02/2017

  abusmc became friends with Scrofula.

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  New Friend

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  Posted: 04/02/2017

  abusmc became friends with Scrofula.

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  Posted: 04/02/2017

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  another day

  Posted by: abusmc

  Posted: 04/02/2017

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  I am trying to be ok i've wasted another day just trying to be "ok" i am for from ok.  i feel so sorry for my self becuase i see her "happy" with out me and she just left me in the dust i hate it.  i hate the feeling that it leaves in my mind in my heart.  i haven't been able to do anything but just feel sorry for my self one day i'll get over it but just not there yet.

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  New Friend

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  Posted: 04/02/2017

  abusmc became friends with Kathy1234.

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  thoughts

  Posted by: abusmc

  Posted: 04/02/2017

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  So i have alot going on I have cancer, my son has cancer and my wife just left me.  waking up every day is becoming harder to do.  each day my eyes open i cry becuase i want all the pain to go away.  i have complelty lost my self from who i used to be to who i am now.  I was a marine and my life had meaning now i'm not in the serivce i feel less of a person becuase i can be what i was.  my wife left me and it hurts so bad.  she left me for someone else the weekend before i started...