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it's been about six weeks since my wife left.  it's been the worst 6 weeks.  i found out why she left and who she left me for.  it's been rough her birthday and easter was in the past 6 weeks.  i want to be healed and be ok.  i feel like out of this whole this i'm jelaous of her.  it seems like her life is ok and mine is falling apart and it makes me pretty up set i can barly afford anything and she is off having a good time she has a place to stay aand is already sleeping with people and i can't even function on my own.  it's hard to know she doesn't love me anymore and 7 weeks ago she was sitting next to me and i thought we were in love.  it's hard to imagine my life with out her.  the problem i have is thinking aobut her life with out me and how fucked up that is.  we had a home and had a life and now its just my home and my lonely life