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so its been a werid day i have taken her off all of my social media i have been trying to hold to somthing that was going to change.  i know what she did and who she has done it with its been rough.  i wanted my wife and she clearly is back on drugs and i cant fix that.  but what i do next i can control and for that i'm going to be ok.  she has moved out most of her shit and that all that matters.  i'm going to take all of it to the curb and thats going to have to be ok.  i never wanted to do that. but she has forced my hand on many things. this is being one of them.  i'm going to take control of my life but man is it tough.  i wanted to do so many things with our life and now i get to do it alone.  it's going to be cheaper lol.  but doesn't change that i wanted things to be different.  i wanted to cuase her pain and try to get back at her but i don't want to anymore.  she threw me to the curb and i still can't bad mouth her everyone else can but i loved that woman and i refuse to reach her level.