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The rest of the weekend was fantastic. We really managed to surprise my cousin for her belated birthday and she was so happy! And it was a great excuse for our little non-family-family to get...

I made it through another day. This one wasn't as productive as the last few, but I did finish writing Christmas cards and am planning to bake a cheesecake for my cousin's birthday tomorrow night.I...

I managed to take the train downtown and take myself to a movie and for a little Christmas shopping as well as an impromptu dinner date with my fiance yesterday! I have been making a concerted effort...

So even though I didn't fall asleep until 3 a.m. (it's hard to go to sleep without my fiance around), I got up at 11:30 and stayed up! While I'm not sure where the morning went, I did make it to...

I was worried all weekend about my fiance leaving town for work today. I've come to depend on him a lot during this last bout of depression. He feeds me, walks me and even bathes me when I'm at my...

I've been trying to stay positive and keep busy. It's a bit harder since the weather is absolute crap, but we made it out when it wasn't raining quite as hard. We walked about a mile to grab lunch...

So I've been home a few days now... Being home is rough. I am trying to stay positive, but find that it's hard. No friends to see. Nothing to do. Well, there's plenty of organizing and cleaning that...

I went to bed at 2 a.m. last night but just couldn't wake up today - until 4 p.m. I feel like I'm still in that bubble where I'm safe and feel ok - but the clouds are really trying to get in and...

I went away for a little over a week to see one of my oldest friends get married back on the East coast. I was worried about the trip since I've been so down recently and wasn't sure if I'd have...

So although I woke up after 9 hours of sleep, it was so dark outside, I turned over and put a pillow over my head for about another hour...A storm is hitting our area and it is cold and raining...

I managed to fall asleep at more like 2:30 rather than 3:30, which is good. I should have woken up a lot earlier than I did though...I think my body is just used to getting up later. I am still...

SO I didn't make it out of the house on my own - the fog was rolling in and the temperature had dropped a lot very quickly...and a host of other excuses I could come up with, but really, I just...

I fell asleep a little earlier last night - 3:30 instead of 5 but that's still too late. I slept past the 9-hour mark and hit 10+ but I guess that's still better than the 12 I was doing before. I'll...

After struggling with feeling a bit stuck, I managed to make it out for another walk today. All on my own. It seemed to go by a bit faster today than it did yesterday. I wasn't as anxious going into...

I had a hard time falling asleep last night - I don't think I actually went to sleep until 5. But I made myself get up at 1:30 - to keep to the 9 hours max rule.I was on the phone with my brother for...