depressiontini

It's been a while. But I'm back. And I'm not happy about it. I'm not sure what's going on. I thought I was doing all right. I felt happier and more stable. And now I don't. The blues are creeping in...

I've been feeling wobbly lately. My mood has been ok, I guess, but I am sort of confused. I can't tell if I've been sleeping a lot because I don't feel well (which I don't) or if it's just to avoid...

I can't believe it's been almost a month since I've been on DS! I got sick after my last journal entry and stayed sick through the holiday. I tried to stay in bed before we left town to visit family,...

I've been trying to keep things positive. I haven't heard back from the agency regarding the temp position, but will call them again anyway.Our landlord has an appraiser coming to the apartment today...

The rest of the weekend was fantastic. We really managed to surprise my cousin for her belated birthday and she was so happy! And it was a great excuse for our little non-family-family to get...

I made it through another day. This one wasn't as productive as the last few, but I did finish writing Christmas cards and am planning to bake a cheesecake for my cousin's birthday tomorrow night.I...

I managed to take the train downtown and take myself to a movie and for a little Christmas shopping as well as an impromptu dinner date with my fiance yesterday! I have been making a concerted effort...

So even though I didn't fall asleep until 3 a.m. (it's hard to go to sleep without my fiance around), I got up at 11:30 and stayed up! While I'm not sure where the morning went, I did make it to...

I was worried all weekend about my fiance leaving town for work today. I've come to depend on him a lot during this last bout of depression. He feeds me, walks me and even bathes me when I'm at my...

I've been trying to stay positive and keep busy. It's a bit harder since the weather is absolute crap, but we made it out when it wasn't raining quite as hard. We walked about a mile to grab lunch...

So I've been home a few days now... Being home is rough. I am trying to stay positive, but find that it's hard. No friends to see. Nothing to do. Well, there's plenty of organizing and cleaning that...

I went to bed at 2 a.m. last night but just couldn't wake up today - until 4 p.m. I feel like I'm still in that bubble where I'm safe and feel ok - but the clouds are really trying to get in and...

I went away for a little over a week to see one of my oldest friends get married back on the East coast. I was worried about the trip since I've been so down recently and wasn't sure if I'd have...

So although I woke up after 9 hours of sleep, it was so dark outside, I turned over and put a pillow over my head for about another hour...A storm is hitting our area and it is cold and raining...

I managed to fall asleep at more like 2:30 rather than 3:30, which is good. I should have woken up a lot earlier than I did though...I think my body is just used to getting up later. I am still...