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- please. I can't make it through this night on my own. I'm having a rough night, and remembering things I wish I could have forgotten forever. It hurts. I'm scared. Is there anyone willing to talk?
- Anyone available just to talk? I'm feeling really low tonight. I can't concentrate on anything, and just need something to distract me from these self-destructive thoughts. I want to hurt myself, and don't know how to stop myself.
- I just want to die. The urge to cut is so strong. But I don't want to go back to that. I don't think it'd be enough anyway. Unless I cut enough for the life to bleed completely out of me . . .
- Does anyone ever wonder WHY they're depressed? I've been thinking about it a lot lately. I mean, my life's not that bad. There isn't really a reason for me to be thinking constantly of wanting to end my life. There's no reason why I feel like I...
- I don't know what to do. I'm just so confused with everything that's happening in my life at the moment. My counselor tells me I'm not crazy every week when I see her, but I just can't seem to believe that. I sure fel crazy. I don't know what to...
- I had an appointment with my t today. I brought in the note I found written by one of my alters. One I had no idea existed. Even though I'm not dx'd yet, there just seems to be more and more evidence pointing to it. That's what my counselor says...
- My t thinks I have DID. And from what she's explained it sure sounds like I do, but I'm not sure. I have days that go missing, people say they've had conversations with me that I'm convinced I've never had, I'm so confused all the time, I'll be...
- So, Last Wednesday after my appointment with my counselor I ended up in the hospital yet again. Got out today. Anyways, my psychiatrist finally made my referral so I have a new psych. now. We'll see how that goes . . . Ever since I've gotten out...
- I'm debating whether or not it would be a good idea to show my counselor what I wrote yesterday. Hoping for any opinions or advice anyone has?Here's the link again, **possible trigger**http://www.dailystrength.org/people/427599/journal
- Having another bad night, not that any night lately has been good . . . Just don`t know what to do. :`(Read if you would like . . . *possible trigger*http://www.dailystrength.org/people/427599/journal
- I don't know how I'm going to make it through tonight. Not even going to try to think any more long term than that. I don't know what to do. I just don't think I can live like this anymore. How long can this go on? How long can I continue to...
- Why is it so hard just to convince myself to keep on living? To not give up on life? To not end my life? Why do I have to fight this same battle everyday? I just can't get free from this, and it's just too much to fight off anymore. Everyday I...
- Again . . . I met with my counselor today, and after I couldn't promise her that I would keep myself safe until I met her again (next week) she decided I need to see her again this Wednesday. I told her I could keep myself safe until then, but I'm...
- I feel like I'm just saying the same things over and over again, but how much longer can this go on? How much more until I finally give in? How much more do I have to endure? I can't fight this depression anymore, don't have the strength to climb...
- that's stopping me? Yes, posting here again, if you would like you can read it. I think I need help. http://www.dailystrength.org/people/427599/journal