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Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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AprilStar 01/04/2010

Again . . .
I met with my counselor today, and after I couldn't promise her that I would keep myself safe until I met her again (next week) she decided I need to see her again this Wednesday. I told her I could keep myself safe until then, but I'm really struggling. I don't think I can do it. I don't know how, and I don't know that I even want to try. It's only 2 days, why is it so difficult? And what should I do?

deleted_user 01/04/2010

When you say you can't keep yourself safe, what do you mean? Like you are actively suicidal right now? Are you home by yourself?
If that is the case, I would say to either go to the ER or call your doctor's office and talk to whoever is on call.

Or do you mean more like self-injury?

deleted_user 01/04/2010

I notice you've been in a bad way for sometime now considering your posts.

Why not just go inpatient somewhere for awhile? Maybe there, they can do what needs to be done for you. I am surprised your therapist didn't suggest it when you told her that you couldn't promise to keep yourself safe...

deleted_user 01/04/2010

i agree you should let them treat you in patient some where

AprilStar 01/04/2010

She did suggest hospitalization. But she left it up to me when I told her I'd be ok until Wednesday. I've been in the hospital 6 times in the past 2 1/2 years. It'll keep me safe for a short while, but then I'll just slowly come back to feeling this way. I can't get out of this no matter what I do. I really don't want to go back, and my counselor knows that. I also start classes again tomorrow, so she's hoping going back into that routine might help. I don't know. If it doesn't, I can guarantee I'll be in the hospital by Wednesday.

deleted_user 01/05/2010

I know the times I ended up in the hospital (3), I wanted a safe place--somewhere I wouldn't or couldn't carry out my thoughts. Each time, they were able to adjust my meds to get me through until the next crisis. (I was dealing with 80-something parents who had lived in an abusive relationship for 50 years, and I was having to care for them separately . . . getting sucked into the middle again.)

My question for you is, are you in a stressful situation that keeps you in this limbo position? Have they tried different mixes of meds? It helped me to really realize why I had such a hard time getting off the road to the hospital, where people cared.

I'm praying for you to make it to Wednesday, and beyond.

deleted_user 01/05/2010

Have you tried looking into any support groups to go along with your therapy? It doesn't help everyone, but that was one of the biggest things that helped me when I was in the hospital, was the group sessions... knowing I wasnt alone in my thoughts and feelings, and getting face to face support from others going through it too.

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