Hi April,

Its ok to hurt sometimes. Can you get a good cry in and let it all out? Sometimes its not good to block out things that are painful to us otherwise they will affect us in other ways... What are you hurting over and why are you afraid?

HUGS,
Nadine

I feel like I'm falling completely apart. I can't hold myself together anymore. I'm scared of remembering. I don't think I can handle it.

I know how you feel. I am sorry you feel that way. Is there anything you can do to prevent your mind from going to the place wher you will remember? Music, TV, a book? Something has obviously set you off into this mind set where this particular thing that you dont want to remember is setting itself into your thoughts...

I can relate to how you feel and it sucks, but it will get better. Im here if you want to chat.

During my appointment with my therapist on Tuesday I had a memory of something. I don't know what. But I can feel that memory hovering, just beyond my ability to recall, and it's bothering me so much. I've been having horrible panic attacks. I feel like it could surface at any time, and I'm so close to the edge already that it would throw me over. I don't want to remember. I know I need to. But I can't now.

I have nights like that too where i would go to sleep and remember little things but not the whole picture. I think when i am ready to remember it all and ready to deal with it, it wil come

I have had a lot of sleepless days/nights for the last 9 years, due to MANY variables. If you need or would like to chat, look me up on here.

I am here honey.......

I can't handle this right now. The thought of wanting to hurt myself keeps appearing. I want to believe it will help, it will ease some of the pressure building up inside of me. Even though I know in my head that's a lie, I can't stop the thoughts. I NEED to do SOMETHING!!!

I just want to hurt myself so badly . . .