Short answer from me is yes!

I think your counselor needs to know what you are thinking. I think that in poetry though, she might not be interested. I say so because they deal in conversation. Thoughts in poetry can be influenced by the structure of poetry and 'other things'. If you can convey the same thing in direct conversation, I say definitely tell her.

On the otherhand, you could tell her you want her to know 'something' and it is poetic in nature .. and see what she says.

just my opinion .. and I am not particularly knowledgeable.

If you show it to your counselor be prepared to be put in an inpatient hospital program against your will. It has happened to me. Only you know how close you are to acting on these feelings and if you are on the edge you should definately show your counselor.

She knows I write poetry sometimes, and she said if it's easier for me she's fine with telling her that way.
I'm just scared of what her reaction might be.

Ya, that's what I'm scared of, getting sent to the hospital again . . .

If you need to be in a hospital, why would you not want to go? It is all based on what is best for you.

Really just don't want to go back to the hospital, I've spent too much time there already . . .

I'm sure there are 'all kinds'. I did 11 weeks INpatient in a Veterans Administration Hospital in a PTSD treatment program. Wasn't bad at all. I am sure there are 'good ones and 'better' ones'. Also, one man's horror is another's 'reasonable event'.

I understand, Bum. You have to do what is best for you. I just hesitate to group any and all hospitalizations as horrible. I think the HUGE majority are beneficial.

Ugh, I don't know what to do. I really don't want to end up back in the hospital. But maybe I should just let her see it and whatever happens, happens. But she knows I've been having a very bad time lately, this might be what forces her decision to send me to the hospital.
Am I over-analyzing this? I don't know . . .

I don't think you are overanalyzing it.

But I agree with WV. The question is, is this poetry a portrait of your thoughts at one time? Or do they represent what you truly dream of now?

I've written poetry before to exorcise old demons. So I was taking the remembered pain and putting it into words. It helped me then. But it wasn't what I was feeling then.

Also you're graphic in this poem. It's more likely to to set your counselor off than simply conveying that you do occasionally have suicidal impulses.

As others have said though, only you know how close to the edge you truly are. The hospital might be necessary.

It definitely what I'm thinking now . . .