Things WILL get better, and you can start feeling better, just a little bit, right now. Go look up videos of baby animals or children laughing on YouTube. Or sit up straight and take several slow breaths, as deeply as you can. Do something that used to make you happy, even if you don't feel the same way you used to about it. Call everyone in your phonebook until you find someone you can talk to. Ask them to tell you their favorite childhood memory. See if someone will come over to talk with you. Eat a piece of dark chocolate. Doodle with crayons. Clean all of the trash out of your bedroom, and pretend you're cleaning out all the bad thoughts with it. Take a bath or a shower. Listen to a radio station you never tried before. I guarantee there is something out there you can do right now to feel a little better right now. Just give it one more try.

ive been telling myself tomorrow for twenty years, i just told myself that again today.

tomorrow

hang in there,

hugs and tylenol pm

You are looking on the gloomy side, and while ever you continue to think this way then the accommodating feelings will continue to depress you. You express yourself quite well which suggests that you are impressionable, so I am going to say this about you, you are a quality human being, a very caring person at heart, even a very loving person, am I right in my assessment of you?

April, .. medication usually helps MOST people. There is a small percentage of people who need something different. I don't know what is best for you.
There is a 'new' treatment .. might be hard to get, might be expensive, might not be right for you, .. but I want to menion it .. you can ask your doctor about it: IF it is right for you, .. you could be at the doorstep to a normal life.

http://www.neurostartms.com/Patient/home.aspx

I don't know, it all just seems so hopeless.

I feel just like you do every second of everyday lately I think about suicide but i've made appointments for doctors coming up! Im gonna try every thing in this world to make it! Hang in there I am.

I feel like I've tried everything already. I see my counselor twice a week right now, it's the only way I've made it as far as I have. But it's only just getting me through, not getting me any better. My psychiatrist has said that he doesn't know what to do with me. What am I supposed to think when he says something like that? How can I possibly believe there's any hope for me when he doesn't even know what to do?

If everything is hopeless, then what have you got to lose? Just try something new and keep moving forward. It's hard, but worth it in the end. Is there anyone you can talk to just to get through tonight?

If you THINK unhealthily then you are going to FEEL unhealthy accordingly. Medication alone can not necessarily make us all well again (a proven fact - no pill makes us automatically feel better), a combination of meds and healthy thinking almost assures wellness, along with professional help if needs be.

I believe that a shift in your current thinking will work wonders for you. Most human beings are impulsive reactors, in other words they react immediately to a given situation, sometimes healthily, but more often than not unhealthily.

We learn this behaviour, via in particular, the teachings of our parents, they program us according to their upbringing beliefs. Generally speaking it is not healthy to be an impulsive reactor because more often than not we do not LISTEN to what is said, in particular about us.

And when we fail to listen with intent, we leave ourselves wide open to accept abuse of us that is not true of us at all. And how do we feel as a result? Spot on, DEPRESSED.

If your psychiatrist said that, you need a new one. That's ridiculous! Get a second opinion as soon as you can, and talk to him/her about other treatments besides drugs, there are a lot of things you can try!

He's finding me a new psychiatrist.

If you should happen to close your eyes, and see a greenish mist, focus on it a little. It is the light from my green angel and his lamp. I follow him to people who are in the place where you are, and I have been. I was shown a way out. If you are not willing to have someone in your face and yammering at you, fine. He and I will just sit with you for as long as it takes. but you are not goiing to be staying in this place. it is not a campground. When you have rested, perhaps you will want to move. But not until you choose, and not until you are ready. And if you tell me to buzz off, I will. Someone else will be along to see if you need anything. Peace.