bookmaven
Status: baby steps toward better - show me how big YOUR brave is!
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i'm sorry i haven't been on much, i had a very long week what with a class presentation and the report for work due. i've been struggling, but today i am oddly content. i received a letter from a pen...
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i've not been feeling very motivated lately. i make plans to keep myself on track and abandon them hours later. i have school tomorrow and a report due for work...the report was actually due today....
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In a few hours I will get out of bed, go to my closet and pull on black clothes. I have a lot of it (slimming doncha know) but it will be a conscious choice today. Because today is a day of...
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a thread on the board has me twitchy and slipping into a blue funk. failing, feeling like i'm failing...not being "normal" or not living up to my potential has screwed my ability to remain in touch...
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okay, so i found out from the registrar that i was granted an incomplete (so nice of Dr. B. to let me know herself - snort) so I don't have to turn in her paper until the last day of next semester. i...
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i feel better this morning. don't know how long it'll last, but at least i feel some sort of stability and level mood. i decided last night to up my lamictal on my own. 400 from 200 the last time i...
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so...today has been a roller coaster. i've alternately been very productive and lethargic; happily content and inexplicably sad. i know about rapid cycling of moods, but this hurts. i'm in a...
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so...my mother and i go 'round about so many things, sometimes i want to strangle her, other times she wants to throttle me, but right now i miss her kitchen. i'm hungry and lazy and don't want to...
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i started a group - Pen Friend Finders! Hopefully there will be responses. I do need to messgae my flist though. i sent out a mass invite and i don't know that any of them would be interested and...
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so yesterday i bit the bullet, stopped avoidance in its tracks and emailed Dr. B. about an extension for my paper. She wrote back today and wants more details about my medical emergency. i believe in...
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i loved having pen friends growing up, but because the world is so oriented to e-communication these days, having old-fashioned snail mail paper and ink pen friends is harder and harder. sometimes,...
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My p-doc is okay. He's competent as far as I can tell. He's just not the sort to invite confidences. I went in today and he's increased my med dosages and added Abilify to the cocktail. I told him...
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Things have been pretty rough for my best friend in the last couple of years. She's stuck in what she finds unfufilling dead-end job with two-faced colleagues and snotty students who are so...
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I've scheduled an appointment with my p-doc for tomorrow morning. I called the office to request a work slip because I think I'm going to need to request a medical incomplete for this last class. The...
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i screwed up and because i'm stupid i've wrecked my dad's life. i've been so focussed on doing well in school, so happy that i've been getting better at day-to-day functioning, so hopeful that maybe...
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