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Status: baby steps toward better - show me how big YOUR brave is!
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i thought maybe if i drugged myself to sleep for a while i'd get out of my head and all this could stop for a bit. no such luck. i had a fleeting thought that the flu threw my body chemistry off but...
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i've slipped further and faster than i thought i had/would. thinking about dying again. i can't stop the cycle of thoughts. i don't know if i even really want to. maybe i'm just not cut out to be...
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Since I'm healed up from my bout of flu there's much I should be doing to get caught up, especially for school. I haven't checked the online classroom space in two weeks, nor my emails. I am afraid....
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I'm feeling very low and apathetic today. Abulia is what Lori used to call it. I have a tonne of stuff to do for school. Tonight's online classwork is due in a couple of hours and I've done maybe a...
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I haven't journalled much in the last couple of weeks. I've been really busy and sick, but since I have some time now I thought it'd be a good idea to settle some of my thoughts and organise them a...
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I have flu...to be specific I have swine flu. I caught it from my sister who caught it from her co-worker at the salon, who caught it from their manager. The owner has shut down the salon and put the...
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This may seem insensitive, and really that's not my intention at all, I'm just trying to get a better picture. My heart goes out to all who've struggled against cancer in all its forms and I am awed...
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So, last night my sister's boyfriend's truck was repo'd, definitely a new experience for me. He's so used to the women in his life (ie: his mother) taking care of him that he hasn't bothered paying...
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Okay so tonight's class was an online chat, but the professor was a no show so we were basically on our own for the tone and agenda. I feel like I "talked" too much and dominated the discussion...
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okay, so i know i do best when i have plans, lists, when things feel like i have some control over how i interact with what i need to do or want to do. so with the brit lit online labs i'm going to...
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I want to stop thinking. I want it to go away. I don't want to think about today anymore. I thought writing about it would help get it off my mind, but now it's like a feedback loop in my head. I...
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It's been a really hectic couple of days. My sister's big birthday bash was last night so I spent much of the day driving around doing last minute errands for her, including picking up her $65 custom...
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The last time I was in school, I knew things were getting bad when I stopped going to my class on a remote campus. I made excuses why I didn't want to go and never communicated with the professor...
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okay so yesterday was an anxiety angst fest of epic proportions. today i am flagging and drained. i have reading for class to complete and i'm thankful today's class is online, i don't think i'd be...
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I'm feling like I'm always running behind, no matter what I try to keep up. I had a paper due at noon today and didn't get it in until 1:15. The professor was gracious enough to accept it despite the...
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