TGIF! Power forward and stay positive! 1st step is the commitment. Happy weekend to all! Stay real.

Well yesterday was day 8. Still no lies but a boat load of repercussions from all the previous lies. Feeling depressed and defeated over the damage I've created but at the same time proud that I have stood my ground and not told a lie, even though I wanted to so my husband wouldn't be mad. He got mad, left and went to where he sees the woman he now is seeing. That sucked and hurt, but at the end of the day I didn't tell a lie.

My name is Bonnie and I'm a compulsive liar. Two days without lies.

No lies, no exaggerations and happy with who I am becoming. In the end it is ourselves we have to measure up to. Working on my three Cs. Commitment, courage, and compassion. Great day ahead!! Keep up the hard work and be kind to yourself.

i'm a liar. and i lie to myself. i also lie to others and i'm sick and tired of lieing to myself. i lie so bad. i'm tired of the lies. you lie and you lose. i'm such a liar. oh, the cheating part of it. and then, lying to myself: that i am the loose one. you can imagine the lying i'm doing right now. and this is only the beginning. now' i'm not sure if i am the liar, or if the guy is the liar.

Still lying and covering things up

DAY 30! I awake and daily commit to being myself and confident with who I am. No need to lie or exaggerate. This I am learning. Continue to ask for guidance to be that better soul. Hope all are well and keep moving ahead. We cannot change the past, we have to get over the shame, we have to be authentic and live within our integrity.

Another week under my belt, I'm hoping to have my first therapy session this week, looking forward to it mostly, I do feel a way about it but I'm not sure what that way really is, a fear of the unknown kind of way or something.

Lied yesterday, today is a new day. I will stop sabotaging my relationship with my husband.

Mikey... 3C's... nice.

laurel1818... I hope you're easy on yourself, and forgive yourself. The impulse to lie and cover up is so great. It's always day zero for me because of this. Even the small, stupid stuff. Ironically, or perhaps not so ironic, is that the huge stuff has become really easy to be honest about. It's the small stupid stuff that doesn't matter that seems to trip me up. And then when the small stuff gets exposed, and I get called out on it, and I try to explain that concentrating on the "big" stuff makes me unaware of the "little" stuff (for lack of a better explanation, or one that even makes sense), she can't help but think that if I can't control the little stuff, how can I control the big stuff. To which I reply, I do tell the truth about the big stuff. Well, of course, since all trust is gone, she doesn't believe that.

margueriteH... easy on yourself, too.

I'm John, and I'm a horrible liar. I don't like the person in the mirror. I'm getting better.

Why tell the lies? What purpose does it serve? Every day do a little bet better. Stay positive and we are doing this for a reason!! Ourselves.

another lie free day, i did hear back from the counselor and scheduled my appt, for the first saturday in march, looking forward to it.

Another bad day yesterday, lied and covered up, but also revealed some truths so trying to see hope there. Looking for a new therapist today to try CBT.

Days 16-17-18...feeling I had were due to a bug that was trying to get hold of me...but my lady and I went out dancing Friday night, helped to sweat out that fever bug...but we had a nice time...however again repercussions, although she knows a few ladies in the place were a part of my past (WAY before I met her but I shared that part of my history with her) she shared with me and wondered if there were any others at the affair that I may have been intimate with...there weren't but she was just being honest in how she was feeling because of what I had done...in all we still had a good time and spent most of the weekend together...we are still making plans to attend events, the lack of lying frees your mind SO much...you just don't how HARD to is to try and juggle to make sure you get your lies straight...dayum if I knew then what I know now...LIBERATING is a word I can best use...still the challenge is dealing with the repercussions but in spite of that I will press forward to the better person that I know I am...keep pounding!

Day 9-12, no lies, asked some hard questions and answered them honestly without hesitation or reservation. Husband did tell me he loves me and wants to keep our family together, but he also enjoys having this other woman in his life he can talk to, trust and knows is always honest with him. She would like to date him, but won't because we are married and he has no intention of filing for divorce. He still wants to be with me and with our kids, but he just can't be invested in me emotionally right now. So I guess some small blessings and small frustrations but no lies which is great. It actually feels good to let go of the compulsion to lie. It's funny I used to not trust him and would snoop on his phone or email or iPad or whatever, he has never lied to me but because of my own lies I didn't trust him. Well I have refused in all ways to snoop, not that I haven't wanted to, especially since he's been talking with this woman, but still I have fought off that compulsion and it feels so good. I keep telling myself, I cant care and don't care what he is doing, I've just gotta worry about me.