Sometimes trich just gets harder to deal with for no real reason. Keep your head up--it will get easier again, it always does. Don't expect perfection, just try to keep your numbers as low as possible.

Same for me Trish! When my hair looks good my motivation goes down. And when it looks like shit it goes up.

Ruts are sooo hard to get out of. How many days now til you leave? Agree with Manda,just do your best and that's all you can do. Self care! Self love! Xo

Thanks you guys! : ) you are so sweet and supportive when I am down.

Finally have some good news, today was pull free!! It is always so easy for me to be pull free when i am not using the computer....... pretty pleased with my pf day, I so needed it.

Visiting family this week, then I have to try and sort out my visa, then next Friday I move back in with boyfriend! ! No more shitty internship that I despise with all my being. The end is in sight!! Sept 1 I go back to my old job but with a new position. So I'm in a bit of a better mood this week.

Great to hear about the pf day and your imminent move! Back to South America? I may be assuming that's where you were before.

Very good news. A big congrats on the pf day!!

Yes, congratulations about the pull free day! // Isn't it weird about how the computer is a challenge? It's like we have bottled energy and need to be active and running around to not feel urges. At least, that's what I feel sometimes when I am sitting still at the computer.

Nice job on the PF day! I'm glad to hear about your move and return to your old job. This sounds like it will be very good for you. I too understand how it is to sit at the computer. My hands just keep wandering up to my eyes...it's a hard balance because the motivation is important, but we need to avoid triggers and keep busy.

2 days pull free!!!! : D

Yaaaaay!!!!! Awesome job! :) :) :)

Great job, stay strong!

Ok, Wednesday was a slip up -- I pulled about 65 hairs (possibly more). And I know exactly why it happened. It's because I got on the g.d. Internet and started comparing myself to other people and just ended up feeling REALLY bad about myself!!!

If I just had a job that involved working in a garden all day or working with animals, being pull free would be such a piece of cake. But alas, that's just not the world we live in.

Yesterday I was pull free. Today I really need to finish this piece of work I have been procrastinating for like a month, it is basically the last thing I need to hand in before my nightmare "internship" is over. URRRK!

Yes Sam, moving back to Latin America back to my old job, IT'S GONNA BE SO WEIRD...!! I have pretty mixed feelings about it.... but at this point I guess I just have to get back into therapy and focus on getting better.

Bad you! For the lurking on that site that promotes perfection and feeling bad about yourself! Not the pulling part. Ah but we face that almost every day, everywhere!

I've always dreamed of working with animals. Maybe one day. I just want to play with them though!

I bet the weather is great there.. Focusing on getting better is great :)

Ok can you wet your hair and wrap it up in a towel while you're doing this work? Or at least wear bandaids.

Focus on the good days you had. It's also important that you know what caused the slip, awareness is key. Good luck managing while you finish your project. The hardest time I had with my pulling was during my online grad school as I was always on the computer doing assignments. You can do it!

You've got this!

As I learned upon my return to the U.S. from England, it was more like making new steps forward in a place I had visited before, even though I had lived there. It is a new beginning, even in places you knew before, because they have changed, just like you have changed.

Internships are meant to be difficult. However, the strength you gain from this experience is valuable in the workplace, in your normal environment, and you'll feel the difference.

Good for you to look at therapy and focusing on getting better! You're already on the first step! Hurrah!

You are not alone in this!

Moving back overseas? How exciting!! Culture shock is crazy but it sounds like you have great reasons for moving and will be very happy once you are settled in! Enjoy the adventure!

You never know...it's easy to imagine "if only..." but the hand of cards we hold is our hand to figure out with or without trich. It's a lovely challenge we all share, isn't it. We must be superheroes...that's the only explanation for our lovely challenge! And who knows, the gardening job could be a case of stressing over rain or nutrients or white fly or a host of other things that you'd never guess could stress a trichy gardener out! Once you nail how to manage our addiction in your own way, you'll be free to sail with stress in a way that doesn't impact a hair count! Anyhow, accept the challenge and boldly step up to the plate.