You are doing great! Sounds like you have a lot of fun stuff planned!

We are doing long distance now but I'm moving back to be with him in August... I accepted a promotion at my old job (primarily so that we could be together again). Oh man, I hope I don't regret it!!! When I left my old job I was so sick of it and so happy to go. I guess if I get fed up again, I will just have to quit and then we will have to figure something else out. One step at a time!!

I may have pulled more than 50 hairs yesterday, there were probably a few that I didn't count. Just writing this now makes me I realize I don't really want to cheat, so I am gonna put that I pulled 51 hairs yesterday because I want to stay honest with myself. So I have already not met my goal this week, but whatever, I'm pretty sure I can be pull free / pull-lite for the rest of the week.

I'm dying to get a coffee now even though usually caffeine = not good for Trish. I have not been super focused or productive lately. Been showing up late and sneakily leaving the office early. Not super good, but WHATEVER, I'm just gonna try to be super productive for the next 4.5 hours before I skip out of here.

I have not been wearing my extensions lately, it's waaay too hot. But I feel more confident about my hair as I haven't been pulling loads.

Ah ok. That's great you can be together soon. I hope it works out too. No regrets!

51 is only just over your goal, pshhh don't feel bad.

Yay for hair confidence!

You are really close to meeting your goal! That means your goal is totally attainable and you'll reach it soon!

Knowing you are not pulling makes such a huge difference in terms of hair confidence!

Pulled a ton of hair Friday (definitely over 100), pull free Saturday, pulled 14 today (most of them at night).

Blaah.

Not looking forward to this week, which means I need to figure out some ways I can get excited about it. I just wish I didn't have to work at this stupid part time job. I'll be leaving at the end of August (to go back to my OLD job which I also despised by the end) which also makes me wonder if the real problem is that I just have a poor attitude towards things. Or it may just be that I find the work super boring. Is it boring because I have a bad attitude or is it boring because it is actually boring? These are the kinds of things I ruminate on...

hahhaa I've had that train of thought before - i think for me at least things tend to be boring when i'm too comfortable and have stuck around too long
which makes me think I have a bad attitude, but really it's just that its time for a new challenge

maybe going back to the old job will be fun because it will be 'new' again?

I've had that thought too!! Haha. Yep I like excitement too. Do you think maybe it's because we have impulsive personalities / problems resulting impulses?

Hey two good days! And a pull free day, fantastic.

Maybe plan some fun things for the week too. Like baths, wine & a dinner out/takeaway/favourite meal. Calls/meet-ups with friends.

If you actually dislike the job, I don't think that's having a bad attitude. You can have a good attitude about it even if you know you don't like it. That doesn't mean pretending to enjoy it, but just making the best of it and reminding yourself why working there at least for now is the best decision.

Interesting question, C. Aside from trich, I don't have an impulsive personality at all. Probably the opposite, actually.

Two good days out of 3 is not bad! Especially one day totally PF!

Interesting indeed Manda. I would say I'm quite impulsive. But not in a bad way.

Awww, thank you for being encouraging! : )

My boyfriend is still here this week so maybe we can plan some more fun things together. We had a fight today but hopefully we will make up (he is a sulker though, usually when he is mad at me he sulks for DAYS. But I will remind him that we only have a few days left together, and can't we make them pleasant? I will have to do something nice for him because the fight was totally my fault).

A really bad day for pulling, I pulled over 100 hairs and then stopped counting. So definitely like a 5, if not a 6.

It's because I've been really down on myself over work-related issues. I need something to treat myself tonight like a relaxing bath or something. I need to take really good care of myself this week and be really careful because I can feel my depression coming on and that could result in some serious hairpulling.

Oh dear, hope you sort it out asap! And self care asap too! The best thing, even though it's maybe the last thing you want to do, is a fast walk or a jog. Or swim or other vigorous exercise. Daily. Fights give me huuuuuge urges to pull.

Big hugs :)

totally agree with sam - the energy release is usually such a great feeling and not having to think about stressful things for a while is so so great

treat yo self! (does anyone watch parks and rec? if not….awkward…hahah)

sendin hugs your way!

I hope you manage to make up with him soon and enjoy the rest of your time together!

Awww, thanks for the hugs y'all!

I have not watched parks and recs but I can agree with the sentiment of "treat yo self" heh heh.

I did not exercise yesterday, out of pure laziness/depression. Not good. I wish I could go home now and exercise/stretch instead of having to pretend to interested in my stupid work.

Me and Boyfriend have kind of made up, I think if we were not doing long distance than he would have spent the whole week sulking.

Haven't pulled yet today, hopefully I can keep it up. I feel generally anxious and crappy.