It sounds like you both have different ideas about where the high/low ends of the scale are :)
Is 1 supposed to be the best or worst day?

Either way, you are doing great!

0 is best, being zero hairs. 10 is your worst day, imagine the most amount of hairs you've pulled on one day during the past year. So the scale is really out of 11 (0-10).

Yes I messed up the scale LOL I got it backwards! I meant to say that Monday was a 1! (I met my goal of pulling 50 or less hairs).

Yesterday was like a 6.... I pulled 161 hairs. ooof. But at least it wasn't over 200 or 300? Because yeah, I WILL PULL THAT MANY OUT IN A SINGLE DAY. So not great, but it could have been worse? I definitely felt really bummed by the end of the day but today I feel more optimistic. I just hate feeling so out of control! It's like when I start pulling I CANNOT STOP, it's a total robo-hand. What a messed up habit!

Yesterday I bought a ton of stress office toys online and some cute summer hats. I need to start using BARRIERS and some kind of replacement habit for my hands again. It's worked in the past so hopefully it will work now.

Not at all happy with how my hair looks : ( It's getting really hot so I'm worried that wearing extensions will feel like having a dead furry animal on my head, but whatever, maybe I'll buy one of those little fans and just walk around blowing air in my face, lol.

Haha your last paragraph my me laugh! Hahahaha. I can't get the image of you wearing a dead animal on your head and pointing a hand held fan at it out of my head! I'm not at all happy with how my hair looks either.

Woo congrats on your 1! That's awesome. And a 6 is not bad. Are you writing these down on a calendar? Mine's on my wall next to my bed. The goal is to try to gradually get less and less bad days, and you can do it. Don't beat yourself up! Please. The toys and hats sound great. I just bought that Tara Brach book today :)

Ha ha ha, I haven't actually been wearing my extensions this week, just putting my hair in a bun and putting on Toppix like there's no tomorrow.

I am keeping track of everything in my phone app...

SO HAPPY.... yesterday was a 0..... NO HAIRS PULLED. YAAAAAY! I believe the last time I had a pull free day (according to this thread) was May 26. God, I really needed a pull free day. I'm so pleased with myself. Grow, little hairs, GROW!

I was able to achieve it by staying hyper-aware and not allowing my hand to touch my head ever.

I also didn't do ANYTHING that I found stressful. This wasn't super good because it meant that I procrastinated some of my work yesterday. But whatever, I will get caught up today or tomorrow. At this point it's worth it to me to not be a "star" in my professional life so long as I am not PULLING HAIR. It feels good to not be stressed out and overwhelmed with tasks!!

Have to make an appointment at the hair salon for August, I'm hoping that will continue to motivate me......

Great job!!!!!

I'm starting to wear my hair in a bun too. Gives me flashbacks to 4 years ago!

How's that acceptance book going?

Awesome job!!!! Taking a break from work to focus on mental health is a good idea. It may help you be more productive in the long run.

I just looked at your pics on your profile and your hair looks good! To me it looks as if there's quite minimal damage.

Wow, your pics look great!!! You're really hard on yourself when you describe what your hair looks like on here! Unless I was actually searching for it, I wouldn't notice any damage at all. Is that without any products to conceal thinner spots? It seriously looks fantastic, especially compared to how you've described it in the past.

lol it's hard to photograph my hair because it's not like there's one place where the damage is concentrated. I just uploaded another one shows the difference between the right and left sides of my hair, if I don't part it in a certain way and make sure there's extra hair over on the left side. Although I have kind of a dopy expression in the photo cuz I'm in bed. I think it is easier to photograph bald spots than overall thinness of hair. But thank you both for your kind comments : )

As much as I have been recommending the "Radical Acceptance" book Sam I have not been reading it that much later. Ha ha I am a hypocrite!! I think I'm still somewhere in chapter three but I really liked what I read so far. I wanted to try some of the meditation exercises she recommends before continuing.

Didn't pull yesterday either so another 0! So far we are 1-6-0-0 (this helps me keep track). I didn't do any of my stressful tasks yesterday. I may have to try and tackle some today. I hope to stay pull free in any case, I'm really gonna try to just NEVER touch my head and wear my cute new summer hat in the office while working. At least that will keep me from touching the top of my head. Usually when I wear hats I just pull from the sides of my hair.

It looks great regardless! You have inspired me to post some photos...I'm gonna do that now! I have been shy about posting photos that show my face for some reason, even though I keep my profile private. And it is hard to get photos that show how my hair actually looks normally without my face in them, haha.

You are doing so well. You have no reason to be self-conscious about your hair...even if it is thinner than it would be if you didn't pull, it still looks fine!

I agree, I would never look at you and guess you had trich. I'm guessing you naturally have very thick hair and that's why you think it looks thin? It doesn't look thin to me.

Woo another pf day!!

Aw, you guys are sweet. Thank you again for the comments, I really appreciate them! : )

It is kind of a mystery to me that I can pull more than 300 hairs in a day and my hair somehow doesn't look worse (well, I still think it doesn't look great). But I remember back in middle school, that was the only time when people would come up to me and actually be like, do you pull out your hair? So it must have been baaaad back then. I don't even want to look at the photos from that time. Maybe back then I was only pulling from one spot so it was more obvious, I don't remember.

Nice to finally see your beautiful face Manda! YOUR HAIR IS SO CURLY!!!! I <3 it. : )

Not pf today but at least I got some work done. Pulled out 49 hairs, so I still get a 1. So we are 1-6-0-0-1. Not bad. If I am either pull lite or pull free the next two days, then I will have SURPASSED my goal of pulling less than 50 hairs for at least 5 days of the week. I think I can do it.

I'm gonna take myself out for some delicious Italian food tomorrow night in reward for my pull free days....

I also have an appointment to get my hair done on August 16th. Eek.

Mm I think I was worse in school too. Though right now my hair is jot great. For sure worse than yours and Manda's. Yay you're doing so well!!!!! :) Just keep focusing on your number gradually improving, and don't focus on your hair. Italian food sounds like the best reward EVER.

Great job making your appointment :)

My hair was BAD when I was younger...most of the hair was missing from the top of my head for awhile, in a patch about two inches across along the part of my hair. I had to part it way to the side to conceal it. That was around grade 8, I think...right when trich first developed and I had no idea how out of control it was getting or how to cope with it.

You are doing great, and making a hair appointment will give you tons of extra motivation.