191 days pf, still sick, getting voice back, over it.

I've been tempted by so many hairs these last few days, it's SOOOOOOOOOOO bad. I'm rationalising it in my head, like "who cares if I pull". This is dangerous. I need to get active I think, and start eating healthy, and get back to work! I've been lying around sick and doing nothing for 10 days. (Worked one day in the middle of that, big mistake).

Ack..... It's not just the kinky hairs i want to pull, it's the really short ones, the really fine ones.

I will not pull tonight, I will stay strong and keep my hands down. And have a cup of tea cos tea is nice.

xx

You can do this, we're all here for you!!! Don't give in now, you've been so incredibly strong for so long.. stick to your personal recipe for being pull free, I believe you can do this :) thinking of you and sending you a mental hug! Hands down

Yes, this is dangerous. You do not want to let go of all you have worked so hard for. Just because you have gotten so far doesn't mean you deserve to pull. You deserve to let your hair down without a care in the world. You desve a proper hair cut. You deserve to be a 1-2-3 years pull free person.

Every hair matters because trich is a liar. There is NEVER just a few hairs Once you start it is too hard to stop. Even you, strong as you are, would want to keep pulling more once you started.

You're right, the urges have been getting stronger because it's tough for anyone to battle it if they are just sitting around. Get out, move your body. Work those negative thoughts out of there. You are in control.

Okay, enough drill sargeant, K. I've been trying to like tea more since the rest of the world loves it. I guess it's the American in me that thinks it just tastes like hot water. xoxoxoxo

Hands down, keep the hands busy, and you can do this!
I agree, at this point, every single little shiny, flat, thick, thin, sparse, twinkly, twisted braid of hair is important! Keep moving, and you can make it through this rough moment.
Hurray!

I like the drill sergeant K. Sometimes we need to hear the tough love version of support and I agree, you've come too far to let trich win at this point. F@$k trich! F@$k pulling your hair! You're better than that. You deserve better than what trich lets you have. You deserve a full head of beautiful, glorious hair! Don't let trich have even one hair!

Tea IS nice. :)

Thanks SO much Lien, Kaux, Mid and BKC :) :) :)

And thank you very much drill Sergeant K. I REALLY needed to read that. SO important.

I'm so happy I have you all, you mean so much to me, and I wouldn't be able to do this without you.

Hehe yes tea is nice, just keep drinking it until you like it kaux.

192 days pull free, and feeling very positive now. I'm still in bed, cos I'm still a little bit sick, but I'm wearing a beanie. And I'm thinking of going out tonight for a bit, just to get out! Hmmm. It's a surprise birthday party so I've planned to go to it for ages. I'll have to rug up if I do go.

Anyway, big hugs :)

I hope you go to the party! You will feel better for getting out and about.
Keep your hands down, and congratulations, 192 days is wonderful! Hurray, stay strong, you can do this!

Twinings Earl Grey decaf. is my companion every morning. Often, I make a pot & put the balance in the fridge for iced tea at lunch. Is iced tea popular in Aus? You can get it anywhere in the US, but it is hard to come by in Vancouver. The regular EG tastes better, but my body can't take caffeine.

Glad you are feeling better, and fending off the trich monster. I understand those thoughts. It is never okay. Every hair counts. As you get farther into the PF, trich gets more devious, like that little devil sitting on your shoulder, complacency is his companion.

HUGS

Yes I went to the party, very glad I did :) Was definitely good to get out, and I can definitely see a link between staying social, getting out, and not pulling.

Earl Grey is my favourite tea also. Though my friend is a tea nut, and whenever I go to her place she always has a million teas (loose leaf of course!) There is one I tried called Monk's Pear.... yum!

I have to agree, trich gets more devious the farther I go, or rather I do. I create more intricate rationalisations. So while it gets easier and easier as you go on your pf, it also gets harder and harder, well at this point at least.

But I'm so proud of myself, I have come so far, and at the beginning I scarcely believed that I could make it until I went away until Europe. But now I'm so close, for the first time in my life a goal related to trich might actually be achieved, and I will fight for it dammit! But I know I will achieve this only if I take it day by day. Big hugs.

Yay for parties! :)

And I'm so proud of you, too! You're an inspiration to me, growing inches and inches of pretty, thick hair in areas that were once bald. Fight for Europe! You can absolutely do it. There is no doubt in my mind.

well done!!!!!! i beleive to that being busy helps against Trich..when i have too much time on my habds i pull. and what a fight it is not to:)

Thank you emmy :) I sometimes forget that that my thick hair literally did not exist 6 months ago. Imagining myself with bald spots (I have no photos) is hard, and it seems so long ago. But so easy to go back to should I not remain vigilant. Thanks so much for your faith in me!!

Thanks Clare, it's true that having a busy, fulfilled life really helps the fight against trich. And that's something we have a lot of control over :)

Sam, do you have a photo of your new hair???Curious...
xoxox

Yep, have a look in my photos section here on DS. I put them up a few weeks ago. xxxx