Ow I'm sorry to hear that you're still sick, I hope you get better real soon.

It is comforting to hear that it gets easier and that the urges get less frequent :) telling yourself it gets easier is one thing but actually knowing it, works so much better :D

btw day 188???

189 days pull free!! This is madness. I still remember the first days so clearly, it was so hard.

Hmm Mid, no haven't been doing that. I'll go do it now.

Christina, the urges aren't really far and few between, some days I'll get urges all day. it just depends what I'm doing. If I'm stressed and doing work all day, there are heaps of urges as I'll be playing with my hair. To be honest I don't really know what I'm talking about. I don't know if my urges have lessened or increased or anything. All I know is that it's way easier now, than it was at the beginning of my pull free.

Thanks Lien, me too! This is day 5 of having NO voice, over it.

Hm that's all, all I do is lay around and watch tv or movies. Sounds delightful in theory, I guess I'll try to enjoy it :)

Um also not to be a super downer but I don't honestly think I'll ever be able to break the habit of raising my hand to my head whenever I feel "not right" or whatever. But maybe in several years I can lessen it.

OH my, I'm so depressing. I'm sorry!

ugh, so sorry youre sick! hope you feel better soon! congrats to you for being able to stay PF when youve been laying around- thats always the hardest for me, hahaha
i know what you mean about habitually moving your hand towards your head- its kind of a good warning that somethings not right though, so theres that benefit...was it you that said that trich allows oyu to monitor yourself and sense when something is wrong? i looooved that explanation! its so true!


so proud of you that youre doing so well! you are on ONE HUNDRED AND EIGHTY NINE DAYS. thats AMAZING!!!!!!!!

Thanks my lovely firante!! I'm just trying to keep my hands down. Hm yes I did say that, or something similar. It's is true :)

Thank you thank you thank you!

"Flick them away" I like that.

Yes, I'm confident that it will get easier over time, but we are still vulnerable. I remember last year sometime when I had been decently PF & then the stress hit at that job I was subbing in for & I just totally lost it. Being alone in a room with ringing phones & never-ending emails didn't help.

You are such a fabulous role model. 189 days YEEEEEEEEE hAAAAAAAA!!! xoxoxoxo

Definitely, I know that I'll always be vulnerable. Constant vigilance, forever! I'll never be safe.

Eep, that sounds nightmarish. I wonder how I will cope when I am working full time in a design studio (hopefully next year). Hmmm..

Fanks Phoebe hehehehehe

189!!!! Amazing!!

Everyone does something to cope with things, some drink, some get violence to others, some hurt themselves,… If you can reduce it to only raising your hand, then I think you’re a real strong woman who’s pretty much in control of her life :) You’re doing so so so great

Oh that's so lovely Lien :) :) Thanks dear, needed that. I've been tempted by SOOOO many hairs all day. Every hair I touch I want to pull out. Your comment has given me an extra burst of commitment :)

You're doing wonderful! The raising of the hand is normal. You're able to raise the hand, do the princess wave, smile, and bring the hand down! You're strong! Oh, wow! 189 days! Hurray for you!

I hope the warm salt water gargle soothes the throat for you.

When you are in the design studio, use your hand raising to help you relax. It helps your shoulders roll when you raise your hand, and also the facial muscles. Really, it really does. That's why we zone out sometimes, it feels so relaxing and we keep going. You are so strong to be able to use it to help you relax!

You can do this!

Thanks Mid, I've gargled with warm salt water twice today, I think it helps. I might do it again now.

Thanks for your advice and encouragement :) :) :)

Ugh there are quite a few really short hairs on my crown that I'm finding.. They are only about 1cm or 2cm long, they are reeeeally bugging me. I should just stop touching. It's amazing that these little hairs took so long to grow back.. Or maybe, it's always this way? I've never had normal hair, but I guess new hairs will always be growing, so there will always be short ones. Hm. Alrighty, hands down time, I've been playing all day.

ahh short hairs drive me mad too....no idea what is normal haha!

Those little new hairs are the hardest to deal with! I haven't had "normal" hair in so long that I have forgotten what mine is supposed to look like too. At least, wanting to know what my hair would look like when it's all grown in is motivation! You're been doing so great. Keep it up!

Are the short hairs in your old pull spot? Theoretically we lose a certain number of hairs every day anyway, so there's bound to be short ones. But clearly we never notice the "normal" regrowth, we've always been so focused on certain areas. I wonder what "normal" hair is like...

Congrats on staying strong 189 days in!