Arghhhh so many hairs prime for pulling! Even tugging lightly (I do this almost unconsciously, then stop right away) sends a charge through me. Grrrrrrrrrrr.

Breathe..... calm....... gone......

Oh i know about that!! The subconscious tugging. BLAH!! i hate it. Yes deep breaths!! I've even resorted to looking at the top of my head in the elevator at work. NAUGHTY ALEX!!

HUGS!! deep breaths sweetie!!

What do you mean, examining the top of your head in the mirror? Is that bad for you? For me it's good, I'll never pull my hair if I'm looking at it. Except if a hair is out of place or white. (And not now!)

Thank you.... Definitely deep breaths. I'm wondering if I should seriously change careers... because my current one involves sitting at a desk for long periods of time in front a computer working to tight and stressful deadlines, coming up with ideas and dealing with annoying clients. I absolutely love being a graphic designer..... but really seems like the worst career I could have for trich!!! Hugs.

SAM!!!!!!!
You are so talented!! Don't change career, we have to find another solution for you....hmmm...Would it be better if you had workmates??? I know I don't pull with people around. don't you know anyone who can be your fellow worker?

Watch out for the tugging, that was what I did when I relapsed...
Hug!

I'm with Granit-I never, ever mess with my hair when others are around, and never have. It's one of the things I use in pull free. Logically, if I can control it for hours at a time so no one sees me, then it can be controlled all the time. I choose whether or not I pull.

You are doing great! Don't change jobs, unless you get to be something super cool-like a roadie! LOL

I totally agree with granit and Kpratt !!!! Dont ever change something you love doing just because of trich.... You are doing amazing and in no time you are going to look back and you will say: What i was thinking.... I can fell it how dedicated, talented, and how you love your work..... Hang in the Sam!!!! You will make it!!!! Thanks so much for the support! So lucky to have you around..... Love you! Take care!

Thank you Granit!!!! That was lovely. I'm actually updating my website now so I'll show you the new one soon!! And thanks for the tip re: tugging. I'll stop it immediately. As much as I can. That scared me quite successfully :)

Kirstin, I am very clever at pulling out my hair with others around. No one ever notices. I have done freelance design work in design studios before, and I pulled SO SO much each time. In fact, the last time I was working for two weeks in a design studio, I created my first every bald patch behind my ear. It was rather large. So.. unfortunately I can't use people as a barrier.

Thanks Luna and Kirstin for the advice not to change careers. I know that that's definitely the wise choice... I don't want to let trich win in my life. I've only let it take over a select few areas of my life (while swimming, not being able to wear my hair out when going out, getting my hair ready in the morning). I'm certainly don't think trich has ruined my life by any stretch. But on the same hand, I'd love a job that allowed me to be outdoors in a beautiful setting every day... Isn't life too short to be stuck in an office all day? Or something? Haha.

Ok so 78 days pull free, I think. Day 79!!! Ohmygosh.

xoxoxox

Hahaha, I didn't mean to scare you!!!! BUT I'm happy it helped you !!!!
MOOOOOHAHAHAHA........
HUGS.

OOOO i'm like that too sam. I have become an expert puller when people are around.
FIGHT ON!! WE WON'T LET TRICH CONTROL US!!

hugs

Me too. I also go after those lower areas behind the ears. It's especially bad when I go out to dinner & get restless. I was foraging around in there a lot just last night.

Looking at the thin or bald spots is a real motivator for me to stop.

I know what you mean about designing at the computer. Keep your free hand busy with a bumpy drier ball. or sit on it, if you have to. Try to break that link between the concentration time & the pulling.

At 78 days, it looks like you are being pretty successful!!! xoxo

sit on the hand, that is.....

Hahaha Phoebe!!!! Yes great advice. I definitely need SOMETHING. For me the best thing is a beanie, but not always practical. In fact, almost NEVER practical.

Yes, glad you helped Granit. I didn't tug at all yesterday. Well maybe the tiniest bit last night but I stopped right away each time I tried.

Yep fighting on Alex!!! People don't see what they don't expect to see, I think that's why it's so easy for us. It's different around family, they know straight away what's going on!

Hugs!!! 79 days now!!! ARGH!!!!!! Exciting.

Went for a 15km bike ride yesterday. My boyfriend and I went with his sister. There was only one tandem bike and one regular bike left we he and I rode tandem. It's so scary!!!!!! ha. But then I got used to not having any control and enjoyed it. Was a really fun and good workout, my thighs were BURNING!!!!! And I have bruising in my ahem, groin region. Stupid uncomfortable bike seat!!!

Going out to a retro club tonight, I'm going to enforce my drink rule!!! Hehe I can do it! Also I'm visiting my best friend in another state this weekend, and we're going on a wine tour. I will be controllllled.

Hoho, a wine ture?? That sounds very sophisticated! And that's just what we are, well-educated,
well-mannered, well-brought-up, well-reared blue blooded ladies!
Have a nice day madam!
Hugs

im so jealous!!I loveeee bike riding!!BRUISING?? ouchhhhh haha. Yes i know what you mean. My ass hurts too after a while.
RETRO!! I WANNA GO!!!! hehehehe I am going out tomorrow and will be enforcing YOUR drink rule too :P

HUGS