Well, PJ's birthday is in 2 days, I'm really dreading it, and tomorrow will be just 3 months since he comitted suicide.  I just had the weirdest thing happen as I was sitting here typing and thinking about PJ, I live in an extremely rural area, no businesses, no sidewalks, just a few neighbors  and trees, very quiet, when i heard 2 very loud taps on my front window, there is absolutly no reason why it should have done that!  I'm sitting right next to it and there was nobody or nothing there, and the screen is on the outside of, so it was inside, so I'm kind of thinking maybe PJ was saying hi, so I just said hi back!!  I just don't know what to make of it, maybe I'm just wanting it to be him, I don't know.Even my cat has been acting strange lately, he scratched my husband a couple of months ago and he got "cat scratch fever", literally, well Sunday, I was just patting him and he jumped up and grabbed my wrist and clawed the crap out of it, now I have cat scratch fever, he's never done this before and I've had him since he was a kitten, weird things have been going on, if it is PJ, I wish I knew what he was trying to say to me.  I hate feeling this way, I miss him so much I ache constantly, I wish there was some magic pill that would make it all go away.