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- with me. like i know i dont want to act like something but its like im listening to myself like a part of me is not with the other part that is not acting good. like last nite i started this whole debate and i didnt want to have the conversation...
- wanna check out my video on law and order svu 911..... :)http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=409mVLNSDEI
- ive been crying myself to sleepar least 3 times a week for the past 3 weeks. pictures of hurting myself are sneaking in my mind. i go into these rages and start throwing things and breaking them and going nuts. i have conversation in my head all...
- So i stopped eating for the past 4days npw and my dad started yelling at me and saying all this crap and stuff..about how im not gonna make him miserable, if i dnt wanna live here he'll kick me out, if i dnt wanna eat here tell my mom to send me...
- ok so the new school that i go to now, my dad works there (i hate it soo much, another prison, thers lil spies all around) im feeling so overwhelemed and have the urge to cut alot and im crying almost everyday or feeling like crying alot!!! and i...
- wen u wanna SI but know u cant? me and my therapist are working on me limiting to my SI'ing to once a month but its harder than i thought...i need some distractions...help plz cuz i already did it a few days ago so thats once for this month and i...
- over the summer i said this year is gonna change and u know wat? im soooo much more depressed...overwhelmed, crying like hell, and SI'ing i just dont know wat to do anymore....i feel so alone and empty.....i rly need DS idk for wat exactly maybe...
- ok so today i found out that wen i was 3 yrs old my cuzin (abuser) started touching me...then i comeplained to my mom and she yelled at him and told him to never do it again.so it seems to me that yelling didnt work cuz he came back to me wen i was...
- usually on im on here everyday 24-7 so wen u dont see me..something is up..this time its too much to right for a post so i wrote a journal its not a rly long journal just looks long cuz i broke up paragraphs alot...i just wanted to tell u its in my...
- i sure am...are you guys here on ds? i cant take myself anymore...all the mood swings..the sayd were im ok and think its a good day then just crash and go into a deep sadness that i want to start hurting myself...i try not to tho..havent in a few...
- i feel like im breaking...my head feels like its gonna explode and i wanna cry so bad, and i cant stop this thoughts coming and going...there too fast and its giving me a headache..i feel sooo stupid. i feel like such a baby....i feel so worthless,...
- I seem to have none towards men. idk why not all of em are bad. when i guy gets to close to me i panic. when a guy stares at me i get uncomfortable. i dont wanna where make up cus i dont want to attract anyone. im 16 and am not like the other girls...
- I seem to have none towards men. idk why not all of em are bad. when i guy gets to close to me i panic. when a guy stares at me i get uncomfortable. i dont wanna where make up cus i dont want to attract anyone. im 16 and am not like the other girls...
- you know how i told you guys that my dad is canceling my therapy sessions and i was deeply sad and crying and all that...well today he called me and we were tlking and he said my therapist called him and i have a session on sept. 8th or 9th i forgot...
- but wen i do, i get so disapointed sometimes..i will try it one more time..cus i wana tell everyone what i did.i wrote down everything that happened from 9-12 honest honest details of everything..it was hard but i did it. during i felt so bad and...