Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
ive been crying myself to sleepar least 3 times a week for the past 3 weeks. pictures of hurting myself are sneaking in my mind. i go into these rages and start throwing things and breaking them and going nuts. i have conversation in my head all the time, it gives me a head ache....i stop eating for like maybe 4 days to a week b/c that doesnt leave a scar....i feeel braver in a sense and just speak my feeling to my dad, i dont even care if i get slapped or anything.
i wanna run away, i dont even wanna be here, i dont wanna be put in the mental hospital but i'd rather be there than this hell hole called home. i feel like everything is spinnning and cant stop and thers nothing i can do about it....i cant sleep but then after 3 hrs im fine...i get into these hyper as hell moods and i for some reason get in trouble for that too.
they all hate me in this house, i know it....the wants me to be miserable and wants to control me....thers spies at skool telling him everything i do...but i did make an appt with the skool counselor cuz i cnt take this anymore...hpefully she wont tell him wat i say, or that i came to her...i feeeeel so alone and depressed..idk anymore...
i wanna run away, i dont even wanna be here, i dont wanna be put in the mental hospital but i'd rather be there than this hell hole called home. i feel like everything is spinnning and cant stop and thers nothing i can do about it....i cant sleep but then after 3 hrs im fine...i get into these hyper as hell moods and i for some reason get in trouble for that too.
they all hate me in this house, i know it....the wants me to be miserable and wants to control me....thers spies at skool telling him everything i do...but i did make an appt with the skool counselor cuz i cnt take this anymore...hpefully she wont tell him wat i say, or that i came to her...i feeeeel so alone and depressed..idk anymore...
The school counselor should not tell your father what you talk about during your appointment.
I really doubt that your father or other family members want you to feel miserable. I don't think they hate you. If people at school are talking to your dad about you, I think that is because they are concerned about you and want him to know so that he can get help for you.
The rages and breaking things are potentially dangerous behaviors. Please get help, even if that means going to the hospital for psychiatric care, so that no one gets hurt. Not eating for days at a time is also potentially dangerous. The lack of food can increase your stress, cause headaches, and make it much harder to think clearly.
Please keep talking to us here. Depression can make every part of your life look bleak and empty, even when better times are just around the corner.
PEACE to you...
and i told her that ive been soooooo depressed.....and been crying and stuff and going into rages for weeks.....she told me to continue tracking my moods and to write still and she will see me every week or if im having a bad day i cud come and see her regardless...
im glad now i dont have to be completely alone...i still am really upset that therapy was just cut off like that...