i feel like everyone is mad at me...i dont ask cuz i dont want them to get sick of me...i do everything wrong

hi! i've been wondering how you are and what you've been up to. sorry you've been having some hard days.

one thing ou mentioned i do big time is hide. i feel like, so dead inside i want to be shaken awake and hosed down, or someone to breath some lilfe into me.

i'm very happy that you haven't given in to the urge to hurt yourself.

who r ur counselors now? i remember that ur father wouldn't let u talk to anyone. talk soon. oh yeah and for the record, you are not the kind of person i could ever be sick of!!!

Hi! i was wondering the same thing about u!....my theraist called my dad and i have an appt on the 8th or 9th and he's putting me in group...my counselors at school...i only like one thats there...she's rly nice!!

that's good if the counselor can manage the group well. take it day by day hon! i'm always rooting for you!

No. you are part of the crew here, and many, many want the best for you. Really.

hun!! I am NOT tired of ya!!! i love ya!!! (i've actually thought you might be getting tired of me!)

thanx WV...Crzy i can never get tired of you....i just feel like everyone wants me to go away...i feel like im getting on everypnes nerves

Who do you think is mad at you? People here on DS? Or people in real life? I'm certainly not tired of you! You're not getting on my nerves, and no, I don't want you to go away!

I think you're awesome, and I hope you know we are all willing to help you out. I think its the depression talking when you think we'd get tired of you.

Hi Itz,

I have been reading quite a few of your post and replies and hun.... how could we be mad at you...your amazing.... Just a little mixed up right now, but with the right help and a little understanding things will get better.

An awful lot of people on here are routing for you....

Andy (BUZZ)

Awww thank you guys...u rly made me feel better :) i love you all here!! idk my old counselors besides one dont email me anymore and so i think maybe i just piss em off or they could be busy..idk they use to email me alot...i usually get soooooooo depressed starting around 7-8:30...or angry.

i realize that cuz i track my moods on a calender like my therapist asked me too but i was too lazy i started it this summer. so sometimes i think everyone that knows me is mad at me and never wants to see me again, then i wake up and sometimes the mood is still there and sometimes it goes away....

im gonna have a psychiatrist so hopefully he/she can figure out wats wrong with me and this time im gonnna be open and honest even if i do sound crazy...i hope that doesnt sound like im weak.

Young lady, BY NO MEANS ARE YOU WEAK. Do you realize how much strength it takes to handle what you are handling. Pat yourself on the back. Those around you would run for the hills if they had to carry what you are carrying right now.

Being honest with your drs is very very important. They can't help fix what they don't see or know. You will be just fine, baby-girl. Hold on!

thank you denna!! :)...my family calls me weak all the time and all that...its watever though...i will be honest this time with this psychiatrist! thank you for no tthinking im weak

my mother called me the "nervous, whiny one"...lol...guess that's why i was the one who took care of her till she died...as well as most of my many siblings at one time or another!.

(i was whiny and nervous because my older sister beat the living CRAP outta me until i was 13 and chucked a coffee mug at her head..she stopped lol)

try to remember that a lot of the things that go through your head are just THOUGHTS..and not always true.

like the emails..remember, as well...shrinks aren't are "friends"...they move on sweetheart. nothing personal at all. : )

The professional codes that govern therapists keep them from forming personal relationships with their clients/patients. If you are no longer seeing them - then their slowing down on the emails is probably due to those codes - and has nothing to do with being mad at or not liking you.

I always used to worry if people were mad at me or sick of me - but not anymore. I gave up on worrying about that - just be yourself and the people who end up in your life will belong there.