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- Some of you know me from the Widow and Widowers board, but I'm Kim. My boyfriend passed away January 16, 2016, unexpectedly, we were madly in love and rapidly approaching marriage. I learned that life is cruel. A year and 9 days later, with...
- Saturday was 6 months since Chad passed away... Sunday was our Anniversary.... This sucks.
- I'm headed on a cruise tomorrow with my very best girlfriend. It is a start to what would have been our "anniversary week" when we would have gone away. I was really excited until last night, I was packing for the trip and I just broke down....
- What a roller coaster of emotions I have felt this week. On Tuesday some of Chad's friends from about an hour away (where he used to live) asked me to come up and see them play softball. They hadn't seen me since he passed, and one I had never...
- It creeped up on me this month. I was at the cemetery yesterday and we were having our weekly chat and catch up session. I was looking at my phone reading him the Game of Thrones episode 3 summary and I saw the date, there it was, tomorrow (today)...
- I had a very emotional day Saturday with Chad's family. Their first Kentucky Derby Party without him. We all cried together when the race started, but had a house full of people to keep us going and focused on having fun. We joked that at least...
- So I finally went to my appointment, after I asked all my type A questions of you guys. I am grateful for the encouragement you guys gave to me, it finally got me to the door of the woman's office. I learned a lot in one short appointment and I am...
- Chad was a mamas boy, he told me that early on. He was very close with his mother. At her birthday we sent her flowers and couldn't pick between two arrangements. He finally said Kim, send this one, lets send these next time. Well he passed away...
- Alright, so I told everyone around me telling me to go to therapy day 1 that I would go when I felt ready. I just hit month 3 and I feel myself starting to feel more strong in organizing and getting things done so to speak, so last night I stayed...
- These last few days have been awful... I know what is looming tomorrow, a trigger. I've been trying to block it out of my mind, but I know it is there. Tomorrow is 3 months and also my first memorial service since Chad passed. My brother has an...
- This should be a happy thing, but it's not. I booked a cruise with my best girlfriend for the week that would be mine and Chad's Anniversary. The cruise he and I wanted to take. She wants to get me away, which I agree I need, I thought I'd be...
- I knew when this happened I would never experience another Saturday the same way again. The 16th of every month would be my worst nightmare for the rest of my life, but I find other things are significantly harder than I ever dreamed. Like...
- Chad's niece turns two today, she was the light of his life. We had a nice family birthday party on Saturday, which was much needed for all, we laughed and talked, his aunts, uncles and grandparents were able to finally SEE how I was doing as his...
- I recently posted in the Bereavement group and was told to venture over here. I am not a Widow, but my boyfriend passed away very unexpectedly at age 30, two months ago today. Often my pain, suffering and grief has been minimized because he was...
- I lost my boyfriend two months ago, we are young, age 30, his death was a complete shock, I saw him less than 24 hours before this happened, and spoke what I believe to be minutes before his death (waiting on the autopsy still). I am having...