Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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ThisGal 08/29/2015

I know this sounds bad but it's true...
I'm having the constant impulse and desire to just giving up in my attempts to get better and dropping everything... Therapy, medication, psychiatrist, trying to stay free from self-injury, etc.

See, I started taking meds for my depression/anxiety/etc a couple of months ago and yeah, they help... They reduced my breakdowns that lead me to cutting and things of the sort. But now I'm dead, a zombie and I hate it. The ghosts, the thoughts and negativism are all still there but I just can't feel them. I can't cry, I feel nothing. So what's the point of living on if I'm already dead?

Sometomes I rather be sad than feeling nothing at all. I had a breakdown again on Thursday after 2 weeks or so and I must confess I didn't mind it that much... I kind of needed it, finally a release.

Does someone else feel like this?

Also, on an unrelated topic, my mom is now in Chile because her oldest sister died... Am I a bad person if I envy my aunt? Why does death strike those who fear it but plays hide and seek with the people who crave for it? Why can't I just die already?

simplycatherine 08/29/2015

You may want to speak to your doctor or psychiatrist about how you feel on your meds. You may need different ones. Please hang in there.

anneccleaver 08/29/2015

sometimes antidepressants make people feel like the lights are on and no one is home. My doc Wendy Macey understands this and prescribed me mood stabilizers instead. Yeah Zoloft and Citalpram EWW!
Have you tried Lamictal?

muskrattiger 08/29/2015

I think this might be more of a problem of ..adjusting your meds ...and not getting off the meds .....you schould talk to your therapist and tell him just what you have said right here ......there are options ....you can change meds .....go dowen on the strength .....or have a combination of meds to get you ware you schould be ....it just takes time ...so it taks pashants ....that is the hard part ...but if you go through that proses ...you will have better ...results ........giving up does nothing for you .......I don't think this is a unrelated topic ...your mom being away because of her older sisters death ....it is all related ......and you are far from bad ....not bad at all .....I dident want to be here untill I hit 50 ...........so befor giving up on the help ........keep working on that ....just tell your theripist ..exactualy how you feel and ware you are ....so they can better help you .....and I am here for you ....just a mesage away ............take very good care of your self ....be kind to your self ....God bless

gramybear 08/29/2015

I went through something very similar when taking Prozac for my depression. I couldn't explain it but I was unable to cry, at all... I was then switched to Wellbutrin and that's all I did, was become emotional and cry all the time. I am still praying for a happy medium. I don't want to be a zombie because I am so darn emotional, but I also don't want to feel like I have feelings that I can't express. Keep working with your doctor until you two are able to come up with the correct combination. We all are affected differently with medication and I do understand how frustrated you sound in your post. Please don't give up, the answer is there for you. And don't let the doctor EVER give up on you. When they start to become complacent, it's time to say goodbye and find someone who is compassionate. Hugs GB

veralynn 09/01/2015

I was also prescribe anti anxiety and first , my doctor and i did not know I had major depression at the time
I was on cypralex and could no longer fill emotions and cry
I wouldn't even shower if i didn't force my self too
I stoped taking them
Now im on Zolof and abilify and it works for me , I am allow to feel emotions and cry went im sad
So i get the feeling

survivor69 09/01/2015

YES, I FEEL LIKE I M IN LA-LA LAND, HALF AWAKE LIKE.................
I HAVE CHOCOLATE 2 BREAK THE BOREDOM...................
LOLOLOL
GBU
D
;-O

bridgie101 09/02/2015

This is the time that you need to look at the ghosts and the thoughts of the negativism, and identify them.

This is what the drugs are for: to take the pain away from the feelings, and let you review them. Delve into them. It's an emotional painkiller.

You need to use it to do some emotional surgery. :) The plan isn't just to be numb for life: this is an interim stage and use use this numbness to look at your feelings dispassionately, and ask yourself some tough questions.

You need a counsellor. The painkiller won't work without the surgeon. :) Have you got someone giving you counselling who can help you unravel what brought you into the state of depression in the first place? If you can unpack that, the wounds can heal and the dose can go down and you can get back to living and thinking about the future. :)

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