leopardfreak

why ...why do i feel this waywhy do i feel at faultwhy do i think im in the wrongwhy caint i make it go awayi did it before im doing it againwhy caint i get the blam outa my head why do i fail why...

i went to my bf on his day off i slept there he woke me up with candles , dinner and hugs and kisses ... it was amazing i got the perfect guy, i actually cried happy tears this morn thinking about...

i dont know what to make of anything at the moment   ... I NEED TO RANT ...  i hate my life , just that simple i hate it whats so good about me ... im not going change the world in any fucking way...

well the past couple weeks i been having problems with one of my co workers ... but after tonight , i worked with a girl i do like to work with but i still felt like a had to cry and for no...

mother fucking bull i swear  starts out at work ..... i ended up in tears because a girl i work with caint stop being negative she keeps insaulting men ... look at her shes just as dum as she claims...

well , its been interesting few days im good but im not .. random things on my mind the good is mula coming is slowly working off my stuff i owe mula too. and seeing someone who make me feel good and...

well today i am good . better mood feel a bit better . lets see how long i can keep it up, this weekend should be fun . getta see a couple friends and catch up yay ... and hopfully i have a cartoon...

 today after work in the morning i got my niece up and off too school ... i brought her cat spencer home , to play with my puppy ... well on the way home i had a bad feeling something bad was going...

i am a lost soal not knowing which way to go. as i go longer i keep finding new reason why i should die. and less reasons to live. my uncle and a good friend of mine died two years ago from suicide ,...

so im money frustrated and i hate the way it make me feel. im 25 mom of 10 month baby, im job less, living off of my child tax and ya well lets see im feeling a bit screwed its x mas is less then a...

so today is getting my nerves going , i got my days mixed up and well i hate this i feel like im getting dumber and dumber as times going on i feel so dependent on others right now its really sucking...

i live everyday waiting woundering, will i ever be want i wish to be or will it only be a dream, i think about death so much its so hard for me to get through every day, the days seem like wheres the...

im starting to get slimmer kinda , i caint notice but others can apparently , i did have a couple steps back but i am starting to say no more way more its getting easier every time i do but still so...

new thoughts for my journal, i am 25 with a 6 month baby and engaged to a 27 year old who wasnt gotten his grade 12 yet but in school working on it. we live at my parents.the story to that is i went...

hi so i figure since i write mostly when im negative i wanted to write something positive , well my baby is 6 months im engaged to an amazing man , and im going to church every weekend now, makes me...