so today is getting my nerves going , i got my days mixed up and well i hate this i feel like im getting dumber and dumber as times going on i feel so dependent on others right now its really sucking . all im getting now is child support no other mula . i feel like my world is crashing down i dont know . im trying to pretend everything is going great im fine , but im not fine im not ok, between my weight and my thought and no money i feel like i want the world to blow up already so i dont have to live in this prision .
why caint life feel like life for me, i feel like im traped im a place i shouldnt be. but this is all i know i dont know what its like to feel what its like to wanna fight to live seriously if somone treatened me i would more then not say do it then.
im stuck in between prison and hell