leopardfreak

not knowing what to think about life any more ... this past weekend i think i accedently sent a red flag to my friends about my thoughts because we were driving i was drinking so i had a dd to drive...

can i ask what is the purpose of life though... were born  , all we do is cost money for food clothes we  need place to live all we do is spend paper and copper and silver thats suppose to mean...

k i gotta admit ya i use to be a hoe mostly for the wrong reasons ... partically its easier to give then get it riped away from you cuz yes im a victom of rape and two with my issues i just want to...

i became to relize the past couple weeks that my just being paranoid about my hygiene has turned into a phobia weirdly enough . i make sure i check every time in in the bathroom to see if im...

life a world full of liers, cheaters, loosers.  i dont want to be any of these i feel like my world is comming to an end sometimes lonely wanting so much but not knowing how to get it im filling...

so confused

 HELL YA  i lost another 10 pounds so 30 in total when i loose another 50 i get a sewing machine yay !!! im gunna need it because my dogs keep eating my clothes so ill need to make new ones , im...

i think im doing pretty good now with things , i want my own place now i think i should set a goal about it and do so , only way im gunna do it  but im doing great , feeling better , but i did go...

with the others who did things to me , a friends dad , was my fault . i was 16 or 17 i wore really low tops or tight tops , his dad gabed my boobs when he asked me if i wanted a smoke , then i was so...

need to get this out  one time he wanted do to stuff i said no , i didnt want to , i asked him why not matt ... he said he like me better .. then contued to touch me my mom started to tell me about...

bad thoughts that just wont go away   people are getting me thing for x mas i told them no ... just to leave it be ... maybe i should be extrem screwge and not even open any thing ... i want people...

dont know where i am in life , i started a second job but makes me wanna hang my self ... why am i so blah when trying to wrok with costomers i caint explain ... once in a while ill get costomers...

i have these friends example  one - single mom . i helped her take her kids out at my cost , i baby sat , i did random things to help her out . - she through it in my face when i asked her to come...

i just got another job yay ... good im so money hungry .. maily cuz im a spendaholic  i so wanna just slit my wrists or my throught and that be that i couldnt do that till my bills were paid off i...