leopardfreak

it started last month ... when u see notice that x mas is comming soon last night i relized that its sooner then ever ... all i wanna do is cry thinking about it ... i dont mind , i love buying for...

had a good day ...lets see if i can keep it up two days in a row  goal ... try to go a week of being atleast ok   

on how life feels now and how i want life to feel ... i feel like im so far away from where i wanna be... im so scared of failing but how can i fail  i dont even try ... it almost kinda seems as if...

tonight at work i was still feeling yucky cuz been sick for a few days now... well i work in a convienience store , but how convienent that a girl i went to hair school with came in ... not that she...

why ...why do i feel this waywhy do i feel at faultwhy do i think im in the wrongwhy caint i make it go awayi did it before im doing it againwhy caint i get the blam outa my head why do i fail why...

why ...why do i feel this waywhy do i feel at faultwhy do i think im in the wrongwhy caint i make it go awayi did it before im doing it againwhy caint i get the blam outa my head why do i fail why...

i went to my bf on his day off i slept there he woke me up with candles , dinner and hugs and kisses ... it was amazing i got the perfect guy, i actually cried happy tears this morn thinking about...

i dont know what to make of anything at the moment   ... I NEED TO RANT ...  i hate my life , just that simple i hate it whats so good about me ... im not going change the world in any fucking way...

well the past couple weeks i been having problems with one of my co workers ... but after tonight , i worked with a girl i do like to work with but i still felt like a had to cry and for no...

mother fucking bull i swear  starts out at work ..... i ended up in tears because a girl i work with caint stop being negative she keeps insaulting men ... look at her shes just as dum as she claims...

well , its been interesting few days im good but im not .. random things on my mind the good is mula coming is slowly working off my stuff i owe mula too. and seeing someone who make me feel good and...

well today i am good . better mood feel a bit better . lets see how long i can keep it up, this weekend should be fun . getta see a couple friends and catch up yay ... and hopfully i have a cartoon...

 today after work in the morning i got my niece up and off too school ... i brought her cat spencer home , to play with my puppy ... well on the way home i had a bad feeling something bad was going...

i am a lost soal not knowing which way to go. as i go longer i keep finding new reason why i should die. and less reasons to live. my uncle and a good friend of mine died two years ago from suicide ,...