crazyeyedkillah

will my heart allways ache with pain? does life have a blade with my name? am i on this earth just for my brain and blood to become stains or is this the first push to become ashes from the flames?...

i dont even really know what  to write..i just feel sad

i wish i had susan smith or andrea yates for a mother...at least they had the courtusey to kill them when they were babies rather then treat them like shit every chance they could my mom is like the...

i feel like complete shit. i dont know what to do with my life anymore. i feel like its the end of the world for me. nobody loves me...she doesnt love me anymore after almost 3 years she shatters my...

just got back from putting in the application. i really need this job. i feel so cold broken and alone maybe if i had a job it would remove alot of my pain from my mind. i could REEEEEEEEEALLLLLLLY...

im going to apply to this factory today..im actually going to leave in a little bit. i really hope i can get this job and be on the first step to turning my life around. its some factory or some...

i truly believe that i didnt deserve to recieve the feeling of being decieved and why is it happiness i can no longer achieve all i can do is grieve as i watch everyone in my life start to leave i...

ive come to realize the fact that the only time im ever happy is when im drunk is probably a problem.i mean ive kicked heroin and angel dust...and i cant kick drinking and beleive me ive tried. but a...

just ate dinner..spaghetti and meatballs. it was mad good. im going to go to apply to this factory tommorrow. i hope i get this fucking job cuz i need one bad...i need a drink really bad too. if i...

i feel like complete and absolute trash. how could she do this to me? all i ever wanted was someone to love me and for me to love someone else and i had it and now i dont anymore. i never did...

i dont even wanna live anymore. everyones allways so mean to me. if it wasnt for this website and 1800-suicide i dont know where id be. i almost put my cigarette out on my arm...but that wouldnt help...

i feel so depressed i dont even know what to do anymore. i dont even know how i can trust anyone because of how people have hurt me. they promise you they will never hurt you and that they love you...

today was okay i guess. i went out to the bar with my homie and these 2 other people i just met they seem cool. only had one beer and one shot of jager. it really sucks being broke man i wish i...

just called 1800-suicide....not like anyone cares...the person on the hotline threw me away...got off phone and my own dad basicly told me to go fuck myself..i hate myself and i want to die....i...

i really dont know where to go in my life anymore. ive been jobless since i was 17..im almost 22. no one will hire me because i suck that much. my girlfriend of almost 3 years broke up with me over...