crazyeyedkillah

i truly believe that i didnt deserve to recieve the feeling of being decieved and why is it happiness i can no longer achieve all i can do is grieve as i watch everyone in my life start to leave i...

ive come to realize the fact that the only time im ever happy is when im drunk is probably a problem.i mean ive kicked heroin and angel dust...and i cant kick drinking and beleive me ive tried. but a...

just ate dinner..spaghetti and meatballs. it was mad good. im going to go to apply to this factory tommorrow. i hope i get this fucking job cuz i need one bad...i need a drink really bad too. if i...

i feel like complete and absolute trash. how could she do this to me? all i ever wanted was someone to love me and for me to love someone else and i had it and now i dont anymore. i never did...

i dont even wanna live anymore. everyones allways so mean to me. if it wasnt for this website and 1800-suicide i dont know where id be. i almost put my cigarette out on my arm...but that wouldnt help...

i feel so depressed i dont even know what to do anymore. i dont even know how i can trust anyone because of how people have hurt me. they promise you they will never hurt you and that they love you...

today was okay i guess. i went out to the bar with my homie and these 2 other people i just met they seem cool. only had one beer and one shot of jager. it really sucks being broke man i wish i...

just called 1800-suicide....not like anyone cares...the person on the hotline threw me away...got off phone and my own dad basicly told me to go fuck myself..i hate myself and i want to die....i...

i really dont know where to go in my life anymore. ive been jobless since i was 17..im almost 22. no one will hire me because i suck that much. my girlfriend of almost 3 years broke up with me over...

sittin here chillin watchin old wrestling clips from the 90's too cold to go anywhere. had meat and potatoes for dinner it was mad good. the wrestling now isnt as good as it used to be. i mean,it...

ddint do much today. was hoping to go down my cousins house but i never got a hold of him. tommorrow i got an appointmet with the psychiatrist and the therapist...yay. i fucking hate doctors. but i...

last  night i went out and got fucked up. we had a big party. some jager,yengling,and smirinoff. i was twisted. and when i got home there were no problems. i just cooked up some shrimp and went to...

went out yesterday with my homie. walked around aimlessly for a couple hours then we went back to his house and i wrote some lyrics to this beat we have been working on and then we laid another...

really hungry waiting for dinner which is steak n beans. probably gonna go to the graveyard tonight...i spend alot of time there. kinda anxious for new years only cuz theres gonna be grain alcohol...

ive com realize i have no life. i spend most of my time at graveyards and train stations with my one friend whos eaqually just as creepy as me. i havent had a job since 2010. no one will hire me. i...