crazyeyedkillah

im just glad i could get on here my computer is in really bad shape. i dont think ive been oing well as of late and everyones happy for m that i got a job. i should be happy. but im not. i called...

i got a somewht job cleaning out houses and shit that was forclosed. and i lost a little weight too gainin mad muscle

so today is friday. a great drinking day. i already drank a 40 for breakfast got another one in the fridge and some gin outback so im a have a good time today. my boy wants me to go to this party but...

since all the dammage has been done,will you still laugh at me when i swallow all the bullets frm this gun? will you still smile when you hear me cry? slit my throat and hope to die. maybe things...

just called 1-800-suicide again. life is a fucking joke. whats the point of living if you cant be happy? why am i so tempted to commit suicide but cant do it and its just because with no answer. no...

so will i ever love someone again?i know that sounds pathetic..so ill stop now before i really embarrass myself

well i actually have work in the morning cleaning up a demolished house and im getting fucked up tonight.i couldnt be in a better mood.

IM GETTIN MAD DRUNK TODAY HOMIE.only thing that makes me happy anymore.

IM GETTIN MAD DRUNK TODAY HOMIE.only thing that makes me happy anymore.

surprised im even up... its sooo early. i havea doctors appoinment today. hopefully ill get to see the therapist soon and continue with treatment. ive come to notice that unfourtunetley,i need...

i am sorry i have to saygoodfuckingbye todayim leaving no onenobody loves me or caresfuck it alli mine as well curl up and die somewhere.

well im getting kicked out again,me and my dad because i still dont have a job..ive been out only since friday and my dad cuz he tricked her into letting me home. what a great fucking life i live....

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so it hurts to breathe. i feel like ive died inside. my life ended when you said goodbye for the final time. i never want to fall in love ever again. its pointless and painful. love is a lie. dont...

my mom let me back in the house. i been in that psychiatric ward for a month. i hated it there but i needed the help. im still not doing too well. everything just hurts. i really ned to find a job...