crazyeyedkillah

well im getting kicked out again,me and my dad because i still dont have a job..ive been out only since friday and my dad cuz he tricked her into letting me home. what a great fucking life i live....

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so it hurts to breathe. i feel like ive died inside. my life ended when you said goodbye for the final time. i never want to fall in love ever again. its pointless and painful. love is a lie. dont...

my mom let me back in the house. i been in that psychiatric ward for a month. i hated it there but i needed the help. im still not doing too well. everything just hurts. i really ned to find a job...

out of the looney bin today....still want to die.

im going to welfare today to see if they can help me. then im going to go to a homeless shelter. i hope i can still use this site

whats the point of love if its never permanent? why all i feel is pain what i do to be deserving it? all this hurt and shit im tired of my heart being burnt to a crisp. feeling dead inside and i dont...

how can i really be alive if i feel as though ive been murdered? how can people tell me not to play with toys when i have a fetish for knives and blood? pain is about all i know. ive been in pain for...

how am i even supposed to go about recovering from my situation. feel so lost and alone. i feel so dead and cold inside. the only thing that keeps me going is drinking. and especially now since...

over the past 2 days ive been doing nothing but partying and drinking. i found a new best friend...the drink is called purple jesus. its everclear with spite and purple koolaid and it fucks you up....

litsening to the song that describes my life "Down In A Hole" from Alice In Chains....i need a fucking drink. i cant wait till later so i can drink my pain goodbye for the day

only reson im anxious and sorta in a good mood is cause...IM GETTIN FUCKED UP TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but after today ima feel like fuckin shit again because drinking is only a temporary...

when i fall asleep tonight,i hope i never ever wake up.

all i ever wanted was for someone to love me and for me to love them and to never get hurt ever again. she just emailed me wondering how i am...why even bother? how do you mend a heart thats been...

it seems like my life is getting worse and worse everyday. first the girl i love(..well now loved because after what she did and said to me i can no longer feel love for someone like that.) breaks up...