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- I just ran into him on my way to the store this morning. I was walking to the store at 7:30 a.m. I didn't expect to run in to him at this time of morning but I was a block from my house and he drove by from the other direction and stopped his car...
- Having a really difficult day. Super depressed. I really feel off the wagon. I haven't haven't been eating well. I've been living off these coconut almond muffins I've been making every day. I think I really need to eat more raw and fresh foods...
- So this is weird and it's something I have gone through before with him. So yesterday I was hating him thinking how horrible he is, all the abusive things he's done to me and now that I am having a good day and feel good, I miss him and feel all...
- Well so far today I feel really disgusted and angry remembering some stuff he's done. For example, a few years ago going behind my back to my abusive mother (whom he knew I felt hurt by a lot) to ask how she 'deals with me.' I had a counseling...
- At least I thought he was a friend. I thought he cared about me. I used to chat with him a lot before I got back together with my ex and was kind of attracted to him but also he bugged me because he was insensitive sometimes toward me (and...
- This is interesting. http://abusesanctuary.blogspot.com/2006/08/from-why-does-he-do-that-inside-minds.html
- Seems like forever. Well I'm in a rage today. He he sent me three different texts on three different days. First one basically said, "Okay I wish you luck, you're a rare bird and going to hard to replace...blah, blah, blah." Second one said, "I...
- I'm watching this documentary called Miss Representation on Netflix right now. It's really kind of smacked me in the face about how unequal my relationship with exbf was. How I was always trying to live up to his ideal of the perfect woman and...
- *Went to a tea house with my son and shared a pot of green tea (it was really great.) I normally don't go anywhere except therapy and shopping so it was a nice treat/break from routine.*Went to see a new Dr. (ARNP) who uses an integrative approach...
- So I am thinking about this for myself now. I started reading about it because of the "addicted to pain" part in the description of Women Who Love Too Much. I can identify with this as I did learn to hate myself growing up and that I wasn't worth...
- I was at a hospital and felt like I needed him and he went to get tacos and asked me if I wanted any and he asked, "Two?" and I said, "Three" and he smiled at me and then he left to get them and he never came back. I waited and waited. It was the...
- So this guy from the social anxiety group I was going to had expressed interest in me and I told him I only wanted to be friends and he pushed it a little bit but then backtracked and admitted some stuff (that it had been a long time since he had...
- So we've been texting for about a month with this ambiguity about whether we were still 'together' or not I started going to domestic violence classes fand asked him to go to domestic violence treatment for men and he said no. Another time in...
- Though it wasn't by choice. My texts ran out and I didn't know. Now I have no idea if he's tried to text me in the past 5 days or not. I'm not sure when they ran out cause I didn't see the alert. I added money today but I have no way of knowing...
- I feel like this crisis has sparked a lot of growth and exciting possibilities for me but my bf/exbf is saying it was just another round me breaking his heart (even though he's abusive to me, which always drives me away from my standpoint.) Is it...