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Some of the small things that remind me of the loss of my son can really add up and make for an emotional mess. This week, Facebook reminded me of the lovely optimistic picture I shared two years ago...

My transfer has been cancelled due to fluids in my endometrium. I'm really sad and disappointed but I'd rather not transfer than waste an embryo that doesn't have a fighting chance to implant. It...

Facebook reminded me that one year ago today I received my master's degree diploma in the mail. I am still amazed that I finished my master's program 3 months after Max died. I truly don't know how I...

Just got the call, I will be starting my estrace tomorrow for a possible FET date of 5/12. I am so not ready for any of this after losing Max, but on we go. Currently I am experiencing one of the, if...

Just got back from the doctor's office, developed ohss. I knew the pain I was feeling was not right, ugh! Have to go back to doctor Thursday and hope the swelling goes down some so I'm not in so much...

Well I finally had my egg retrieval on Sunday (thanks for ruining my super bowl plans) and I am so glad it is over with! Saturday night and Sunday morning I was in so much pain, I could barely walk,...

Have been on the meds for just over a week now...the shots hurt, my belly is bruised all over, the crook of my left arm is so bruised it's almost black because that's the only spot they can get a...

When you are getting $5k worth of ivf meds delivered and FedEx never comes, but your tracking number says they tried to deliver it and nobody answered the door :( so it was a fun morning fighting...

I am wondering when it is going to stop hurting when I hear pregnancy annoucements.  I am sitting at my office and two co-workers are squealing in delight because one's daughter is four weeks...

I am so tired of feeling the way I do. I'm still grieving the loss of Max but have to start trying again because the financial package that we paid for expires next year and we still have a fresh...

This is truly some rambling, so read at your own risk...June 8th was exactly 6 months since Max died, it was a rough day, rough week really.  Who am I kidding, it has been a rough 6 months and...

Well this week has been shitty...being continuously reminded that Sunday is mother's day has been fun. Oh but it's not only mother's day, it is 5 months to the day that we lost Max. I have also been...

Unfortunately, we lost little Max Michael on 12/8/15. I went into the hospital on 12/6/15 with an extreme case of pre-eclampsia and we later found out my placenta wasn't working properly and Max...

My friends had a gender reveal party for me today and it's a BOY! Hubby and I are so excited! We are going to name him Max Michael.

It feels wierd to write an update now that I'm pregnant when so much of my energy was focused on getting pregnant before. It still feels unreal, like I'm going to wake up one day and this will all...