Starting over
When you are getting $5k worth of ivf meds delivered and FedEx never comes, but your tracking number says they tried to deliver it and nobody answered the door :( so it was a fun morning fighting with FedEx and finally getting our meds for our next fresh round, we will be starting on Saturday. I'm not so sure that I am ready to do another round after losing Max but here it is and here we go. I have decided not to tell anybody except for my parents and sister that we are starting again just because everybody was so excited last time when it worked and having to tell everybody about losing Max, it was devastating. I realize that it means less support for me but it just feels like the right thing to do.
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I support you!! And I am SO proud of you for being brave enough to try again! You are a trooper and so dedicated! What you are doing takes so much courage! I will truly be praying for the best for you! Be gentle with yourself as this roller coaster begins! The hormones are no joke and I am sure you are going to be nervous! Don't forget to allow yourself be hopeful! Whatever baby you may conceive now has a big brother in heaven watching over them!!
I am so glad you are trying again. I know that it must be really hard for you. Try to remind yourself that this is a new attempt, filled with new experiences, and the possibility for great joy. I am here for you! I am temporarily off Facebook. I still get your notifications when you post a journal on here, so I will be checking in with you.
Thank you both! Started my injections tonight and forgot how much I really hate them! Just glad my husband is willing to do them instead of injecting myself. I am already a hormonal mess, took my last birth control pill Monday and since Wednesday have been spotting and pms'ing like I'm getting my period, now all the extra hormones are starting :) I think my husband forgot how crazy it can make me too, keeps looking at me like I've lost my mind (feels like I have) lol. Other than that, I feel pretty good about the whole thing. Also, knowing we aren't doing a transfer right away so I still have time to process helps too.
Thanks again for the support ladies, I truly appreciate it more than you could know :)