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- Ive been lying to my partner, members here and myselfIts 4pm and ive drunk 2 bottles of wine.I want to keep swimming to sobriety but I keep facing a riptide.i was gonna just leave - but i cant cos i still want annd clearly need help.
- a young girl i know through work was murdered this week. I didnt know her very well but I worked with her on and off.She was a beautiful vibrant bubbly 22 yr old who was tragically murdered by her boyfreind who also worked with her though i dont...
- Had a slip again. There was no real reason to. I just did. Now im sat nursing a hangover and telling myself not to drink today.I suck at sobriety, I really hate myself right now.
- I know it sounds so obvious but its a new thing to me to see.I went to my aunts house for the first time since I quit drinking and my aunt and uncle drink often.I think they have a problem, but thats a seperate issue. So me, my partner, hs kids go...
- Sounds dumb huh. M paRtner smoked when i met him - I hate it and have never dated a smoker, infact it would make me not date someone.Anyway I fell madly in love. He knows all about my drinking and is supportive, but we had a deal recently - I wanted...
- I drank. As simple as that. Im disgusted with myself, my partner is disgusted with me.It wasnt just one drink - It was a 2 day bender. 7 bottles of wine - lots of which are stained all over my partners carpet.I had been doing so well, 60 full days...
- Im having cravings. Im alone, have lots of free time, have pain - just got a coil fitted lol. I want wine!! I HATE THIS! I want it really badly.The little voice keeps justifying it to me, its one bottle - you deserve it, things havent been great for...
- Some of you may remember my mortal fear of this when I was first sobering up, away around day 14 methinks - well I got through that easy enough and was so proud.Heres the kicker - I packed today to go away for 2 nights (the usual spa hotel, there...
- I really like this poem, I came across it once in a diet sort of club - that dealt with a lot of therapy too, it was about awareness but I guess it can be applied to any problem.I hope someone else may find it useful. AUTOBIOGRAPHY IN FIVE...
- It was this time 4 saturdays ago I last drank.Today Im really craving. My b/f is out for a few hours, I really want drink - everything i watch on telly has it, my work class bought me a bottle of wine yesterday to say thanks after i taught them for...
- For anyone who hasnt made the choice yet to leae alcohol, I can promise it gets easier.I have 19 clean days since this morning, i have lost 9lbs in weight, my skin looks great, I feel awake for the first time ever - I can actually FEEL for the first...
- my doctor was the first person I went to for help really. They did a lot of blood tests and as I had been drinking well over 100 units weekly for 10 years they told me to expect there to be some liver damage.Apparently 0-55 is normalthen the higher...
- I have had 19 days clean behind me as of this morning.The last 9 days have been easier / tougher at same time.Major thing - I told my mum - who knew but chose to ignore it. So I have her support, shes told my dad but thats it. None of the rest of my...
- omg, i never thought i would be able to type the words let alone do it.I was at a work party theme day. I am the most scared of spiders person you could meet - even thinking about them makes my heart pound. Im even terrified of the little ones.So i...
- I completed 10 days!!!!!!!!!!!!I halved my librium dose yesterday to 2 a day, will see my doc this week, and hopefully that will be me off them.I got very angsty last night - you should see how clean my house is as i searched for something to do.