You are wanting to drink because all of those little things are bothering you.Take them one at a time,think about what you can really do about them.Think about what you getting something to drink will really do for them.Take these last few sober days you've had,think about what you've done to not take a drink and do it today.

hey dipso do u know what S.O.B.E.R. means? son of a bitch everything is real!!!! hang in there. be greatful u aint the top story on the 5 o clock news.

Be strong, you can get through this and when you do you will be a happier person. This is one of those times that you show everybody what your made of. You got to reach down and find that strength you need. It is there yu just have to find it. You are above this disease, don't let it pull you back down.

From my experience you are not suffering from a craving, which can only occur when you have a substance in your body, you are suffering a mental obsession which is one of the parts of the illness of alcoholism.

The only way I personally found to get rid of the mental obsession was to work the 12 step program.

Prior to working the program I suffered from the mental obsession all the time I wasnt drinking and eventually gave into it everytime. It was beyond my mental control and the only thing to remove the pain of it was alcohol.

Since I worked the 12 steps I have not had the mental obsession - I have not wanted to drink. I never managed more than 3 weeks sober in my 17 years of active alcoholism. Since I worked the steps I have been sober and free from the mental obsession to drink for 6 1/2 years so in my experience it does work.

Where you are is a horrible place and sobriety would not be worth it if we had to spend our days tortured with the desire to drink.

My experience is that it doesnt have to be that way. There is a way to become free from the terrible grip that alcohol has on us.

the craving last's only a very short time it's when we FOCUS on that craving it becomes an obsession. The trick is to refocus. Turn your attentions to something else. If you have the beginnings of recovery support and some phone numbers... call. Don't try to get through this alone. What your going through right now is proof of what they say. Alcohol... cunning, baffling, powerful (if we give it the power)

I have been there and done that too.. It helps you think clearer, and slow your racing mind, and cease the pain. But it's not the right way to do it. You need to find other outlets that will help you stop thinking as much. something that busies you completely so you don't have that spare time to think those things or feel that way. Go for a run or someting and just focus on the rythm of your feet on the concrete, nothing else. I do that whenever I feel the need to drink myself calm. it actually works. Other things work just as well, if you don't have time to run. message me if you need any other methods.

Dipso:

I see you wrote this post over 8 hours ago, so I hope you were able to hang in there. You have come SO FAR!! You just survived that whole out of town gig w/o drinking. That's HUGE!!! That shows incredible strength.

I agree with the others. Do something to distract yourself when you think you want to drink alcohol. Do your best friends know you've quit drinking? If they do, you could call them. Mine were more than willing to be there to talk me down at 3:00a.m. if that's what I needed. (I never had to make that call, but just knowing I COULD if I had to was helpful.)

I KNOW you can do this. I'm sure everyone's brains get a little wobbley in early sobriety. I know mine did. It gets easier, I PROMISE, and it is so worth it to stay sober.

I thought that "I Am Your Disease" post somebody dredged up the other day was so helpful. One of the quotes that really sticks with me is, "I [Alcoholism] provide you with instant gratification, and all I ask in return is long term suffering." How scary and how true is THAT??!!

Stay strong!! I KNOW YOU CAN DO THIS!!!

Thank you all - The ideas you have given will be a great help to me in the fututre too.

I survived the wobble :)

I couldnt think of anything else to do - so i went to my mums for a few days - she knows my problems, so i could just cry it out. I stayed there until today. Though I found i was being checked on lol. my sisters were sent in to keep me company when i would go to bed.

Anyway, I woke up this morning and felt strong enough to go. And guess what. Its been 30 days!!!!!!!!!!

30 DAYS SOBER, dont get me wrong I still wanted to drink, but i stayed away from it.

But 30 days - that i huge to me.

Thank you so much for everyones support and all the hugs.