It's only a waste if we don't get back to our sobriety...get back to where you once belonged.

I've been back out for 4 years...take comfort that you acknowledge that you screwed up! and that you have support...those are 2 things I didn't have when I screwed up!!!

Not a waste at all. YOu did 60 days sober. If this was easy, there would be no reason for this forum. Okay, you screwed up 2 days out of 62- do the percentages- that's a pretty good record

Many of us (ME TOO!) have had to try this a number of times to get it right. You don't just "unlearn" years of learned behavior and addiction. Just don't allow yourself to sink deeper. Your 60 days still count and you can make today another sober day.

p.s. rent a good carpet cleaner or something! Gotta wash those memories right out of your rug! (o;

Hey, cut out the crap. You messed up, but look at it and try to learn something from it. Were not perfect, and we make mistakes and choices that may not be right. Are you going to waste time beating youself up about it, or dust yourself off and try again? I fell hundreds of times. we strive for growth, and even the mistakes we make can be used for good. apologize to your partner and move on. Keep your focuse foreward, and don't look back. All the best, James

Thank you for your support.

I really liked the 2 days out of 62. My 60 days do count.

Ive apologised to my partner, and to myself. Ive forgiven myself as its an experience to learn from.

Ive already made the decision not to drink today. My partner has left me a punishment of going to buy him beer to face my fear.

I never got hangovers before but my god this hurts.

Also - Ive recognised that it was inevitable, and had been on the cards for some weeks. I was starting to make bad choices and isolate I guess that should have been my cue to preventing it by acknowledging it was coming. Instead I ignored it and it got me.

Dont know if that makes sense to anyone but me.

But thank you for being here for me.

Dude,
It is not a waste. Alcoholics drink. That is what we do. For "ANY" alcoholic to be sober is a miracle. It takes an act of Providence for us to recover.

Remember, we do not drink no matter what! You call someone, go to a meeting, or just talk to anyone that will listen. Your ass will be falling off alot. Just hang on to your butt cheeks and remember that "this too shall pass".

Guru

Relapse, slip, what ever you want to call it it is part of recovery. you white knuckled it for 60 days. Now work for a lasting and living sobriety. It is out there, you just have to want it bad enough. My last slip cost me my kids. The one before that one cost me my house, my marriage, my finacial securtity, my easy life. I knew that I was to slip again, I would be jobless, homeless, dead. Ask yourself, what else can I live without. Drink and it to will be taken away. Get yourself to a group or a good program and work it. AA is a good start. It is also a good way of life. It is not the only path to sobriety, but I know that it has worked for me. 7 months!!!!!! It has also worked for all of my friends that followed the program. It works if you work it so work it.

Hey dipsydoo
Remember 70 or so days ago you were despondent and didn't think you could even go a few days??
I remember.
And lookie what you accomplished! 60 days!!
I think the last time I did 60 days was when I was...uh...hmmmm 13 years old probably. I'm 46 now....
60 days is great. I find it rather odd your boyfriend is "making" you get him beer. Just doesn't make sense to me and sounds like on the cruel side. If he's drinking in your presence I'm even more in awe that you managed 60 days. I mean your partner. Sorry for assuming the male gender.
Now you know you can do 60. Got for it again.

Welcome home

Wohoo you are right. I couldnt believe I could manage a few days. 60 days was such an accomplishment and if im honest, not anywhere near as difficult as I thought.

My boyfriend doesnt mean to be cruel, i think he just doesnt fully understand. Though Im fine with going to get it.

I thought I would be freaking out more but im feeling ok about tonight. And lol, i also cleaned my carpet.

OK, you screwed up for 2 days. It does NOT trash the 60 days at all. Call it a learning experience. You've apologized, carpets can be washed. The thing I worry about it your partner holding this against you. By the way, this whole bargain of buying beer is asinine. I can't believe he thinks that's appropriate 'punishment'. Sorry, I just think that's being a bit of an asshole. He doesn't want you to drink by he wants to subject you to a beer purchase? a-s-s-h-o-l-e. Offer to pick up the carpet cleaning and if it doesn't all come up maybe some nice throw rugs until he can replace the carpeting. Most really good carpet cleaners can get these things out. At any rate, hope right back on board. We love you and we've all been there. Or most of us have.

I meant 'hop right back on' WITH hope of course:)

I am glad you are back with us -- wELCOME HOME!!

Oh yea, I'm just back 120 days from a 4 year drunk. We are blessed to be able to make it back, My Friend. Don't get stuck feeling like you have wasted your time -- Most of us have been where you are -- nothing is a waste if we can come back and begin again!

I love you -- Welcome Home!!!

Well the carpet is cleaned. The beer bought, infact i didnt even consider it when i did it.

I also found a bottle of wine in my car. Apparently I drank six not seven bottles. Im not tempted by it though.

Funny thing was that when i was drinking i really hated the taste. i guess i just got out of the habit of it.

AnneL, thanks for your support, consider me hopped. :)