People here can give support and suggestions but the only person who can really do anything about your situation is you.

Do you really want to stop drinking and are you willing to do anything that it takes to achieve that?

Whatever way you are using to try and get sober now is obviously not working so maybe it is time to try something different?

For me after I had tried everything else and was desperate for a way not to drink any more I ended up in AA and working the 12 step program. It was a place of last resort for me. So far it has worked for me where everything else I tried had failed.

You can't do it alone but no one can do it for you. When you have come to believe that you don't know what you don't know then the answers will be here, you will see them clearly and will take the necessary action to correct the problem.

Big Hugs...Ree

I think that you show courage in sharing the truth on here. For me going through treatment has helped (I went inpatient over the summer) and I've been going to at least 3 AA meetings a week since being out. I know it's different for everyone though. Are you getting any kind of professional help? Hang in there, I know it's hard but you can do it one day at a time.

last night I was watching "Celebrity Rehab" and there was a girl on there who wanted to drink and drug before rehab-they then showed her later that night crying and out of it saying "why do I do this?" I saw her before her binge and she seemed down, but not nearly as terrified and depressed as she was in the midst of her binge. With this I ask, why do we addicts think that every time we use it is going to bring us something different, something better? CLearly dispso is drunk and miserable in this post. Why do we keep thinking over and over that we may someday drink and be happy like it was that fleeting time at the beginning? Insane.

Dipso, I don't mind that you've been lying here. Most of us here understand that the bottle is a strange and powerful foe. It's made most of us lie to others as well, and I'd wager it's made all us lie to ourselves.

Having realized a problem with alcohol, some people can quit drinking on their own. That's great. But a lot of have found, either that we could not quit on our own, or that it was a hell of a lot easier to quit with the help of a support group.

If you truly want to quit drinking, you need to be honest with yourself and reach out to someone who has this problem FACE TO FACE. Try a few aa meetings, or seeing a therapist.

All the best to you--honestly

August 15th 2007 I was drunk, alone in my suite, realizing all the years and all the people I had lost because I could not stop drinking. I did something I never did before, I got on my knees and I asked for the "God of my understanding" to take away the craving.
I woke up the next morning and have not craved a drink since. I have wanted one, but not craved it. It was a rough first few months, I ended up homeless, thrown out of the shelter with a police escort (for having a feeling) but through it all it did not occur to me to drink.
I am not a religeous person but someone or something heard me, they'll hear you also.

OK. Now are you ready to do what you have been told to do?
1. 90/90
2. Read the Big Book (1st 167 ppg).
3. Ask God to keep you sober/Thank him at night
4. Find a sponsor and work them.
5. Plug the jug

pity pot will keep on stinkin until you get off it and flush that shit

It takes courage to admit that you have been telling lies, and well done for that, however to type it on to a screen to unseen people is a tad easier than doing it face to face. If you have the courage to tell us then you can tell someone in person. I would love to see you go to AA but no one can force you. For me it was like coming home.I couldnt have done it without them.